His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 34

Hewitt

I don't share, I hate sharing my things, whatever it is, no matter how small and insignificant it is, I hate sharing, I like to have things to myself, I know it's a little on the possessive side but that's just who I am.
And I think that's one of the reasons why I hated the fact that Stefano was letting Luke back into his life, because that would mean I'd have to share him as my best friend with Luke.

I think that's why I'm seething with anger right now, feeling the burning sensation in my chest and in every fiber in me watching Luke and that annoying blonde, literally flirting with each other, if not for the fact that they were in public, I'm pretty sure they'd be fucking each other already.

I shouldn't care who Luke fucks, it shouldn't be my business, but it is, it became my fucking business the minute we started hooking up, I'm the only one that's allowed to fuck him, the only one that's allowed to touched his arms like that, no one, no one should laugh that hard at his jokes, give him those lust filled eyes.

I clenched my jaw as I tried to calm my racing heart, I'm not jealous, this isn't jealousy, I don't even like him, he's not my type, I'm not gay, I've just been fooling around with him, but he should know to keep it in his pants, I know it's been a while we fucked, since the last time I went to his place and we had that mind blowing sex, and Stefano called, we haven't hooked up again, I have thought about calling him, but my pride is just too big, I know what I said about him never belonging in Stefano's life, struck a nerve, but it's not like I care about his feelings.

But I noticed today that he was ignoring me, all through the drive from his hotel to this club, he didn't say a word to me, he didn't look at me, and I know it's because of what I said that day at his place.
Even when I tried to get him to talk to me, he ignored me and went to the bar, where he was currently sitting at and flirting with that ugly ass blonde, with a stupid smile and stupid hair.

I was seething with anger, Luke is not even funny, so why the fuck is he laughing?
I know why, it's because he wants to get into his pants, and Luke being a manwhore, he's going to let him.
I felt my hands around the glass tightened, if I put any more pressure, it's going to shatter.

First he ignores me, then he goes ahead to flirt with someone else, even letting the bastard touch him, I gritted my teeth together, I looked away from them because I was seconds away from marching towards them and punching the blonde square in the face.
I let out a deep breath, you're not jealous, I kept chanting in my head.

Luke is not my boyfriend, I don't like him but I don't like to share, I hate it, and with the way he's flirting with that stupid fuck face, I know he's going to let him fuck him.
My eyes rested on Stefano and Matteo and they weren't even making this anger any less, they were sucking off each other's face, hands groping each other, they were seconds away from fucking each other.

Why are they even so public with their affection, we get that they're in love and can't do without each other, but the public display of affection isn't really necessary.
I don't know why I'm angry at them, they're not the reason why Luke ignored me the whole of today, or why he's flirting with that blonde dumbass.

What is even wrong with me, why does it bother me that Luke might fuck a total stranger?
I shouldn't care, I hate him, he's of no significance to me, he's just a hook up, like every other hook up I've had.
But dammit, he's the only one I've ever hooked up with more than once, and since I started hooking up with him, I haven't been able to get myself to have sex with another woman, I mean I've tried, but it's not working, I can't get excited or hard around someone that isn't Luke, and it bothers me, as much as I enjoy fucking him and having him at my mercy, I'm very bothered and worried.