His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 71

Hewitt

Flashback

I don't know if I'm just being paranoid, but I have this feeling like Stefano is mad at me, or angry or pissed, I can't quite explain it, but I noticed the side glances he's been giving me since that party over at Spade's house.
There's a way he always stares at me when he thinks I'm not looking, like I did something wrong and he's waiting for me to realize and apologize, and when I asked him about it, he said everything was fine, but even the way he said it, made me know that everything is in fact not fine

He's hiding something from me, I can feel it, but that's not even the highlight of my crisis.
It's been two days since the party at Spade's house, and I feel like shit, and not in a hungover drunk way, more like I feel incomplete, I feel.... I groaned out, I can't even explain it.

I tried to have sex with someone else at the party, but it ended in shit, I didn't feel anything, even when she gave me that blowjob, all I could do was compare it to Luke, and I couldn't even concentrate on it, I ended up walking out on her.

I saw Luke at the party too, but by the time I'd come out of the room I had sneaked into, he was gone, just left like that, I asked Spade and he said he had no idea that Luke had left, I noticed Stefano was also missing that night.
Of course I'm not saying they sneaked off to do anything, I know that's impossible, I'm just saying, I have this nagging feeling in the pit of my stomach, that whatever is making Stefano mad at me, has something to do with Luke.

I sighed out heavily and rubbed my eyes with my fingers, I haven't had enough rest in the past two days, I don't know why.
I've been restless for no reason, and it's affecting my work, it's affecting my life.
My door suddenly burst open and Stefano walked in, my eyes raked through his body and he looked like shit, his hair that's always usually combed and packed, was left running wild, all over his face.
He didn't look like he had shaved in a while, and his eyes had bags under them
What the shit is going on? Did something happen with him and Matteo?

His eyes found mine and he clenched his jaw, that angry look in his eyes again for me, okay what the fuck did I do to him? I mean if I did something to offend him, he should just fucking tell me, instead of acting like a pussy all the time.
He walked towards the couch and sat himself on it, before he was back to angrily staring at me again

"What the hell is going on with you"? I asked and he just sigh out and shrugged, that's all he does these days, and it's slowly getting on my nerves, shrugging is not telling me anything, he's being cryptic
"Stef, I'm sick and tired of your silent treatment or whatever, you look like shit, you barely say more than a few words to me, and don't think I haven't noticed the way you've been glaring at me for the past two days when you think I'm not looking, so I'm gonna ask you, what the fuck is going on with you"? I asked and he looked at me, clenching and unclenching his jaw before he looked away from me with a heavy sigh

"He's leaving" he blurted out, and I frowned, holy shit

"Matteo's leaving you? Why? Did you do something to him, what....." He cut me off when his glare settled on me

"Not Matteo, Luke" he whispered out and I felt my heart immediately freeze for a second before I could breathe again, I frowned and looked away from Stefano, hearing his name made me remember what I did at Spade's party two days ago, I so badly wanted to distract myself from looking at him at the party, that I almost had sex with someone else, and if not for the fact that he may have ruined sex for me with anyone else, I probably would have gone through with it
I don't owe him anything, my loyalty especially.