His Redemption (MxM)

Chapter 47

Luke

Ever since I met Hewitt, if you ask me why I do some things that I do, I will not be able to give a good enough explanation, one of those things was coming back to New York, I wasn't supposed to come back with Stefano, I was supposed to just stay back and take care of the company, but I hopped on the plane with him and came back, he asked my why and I lied that I liked New York, I don't like New York, it's not like Italy, it's very different and it makes me homesick.

The real reason why I came back was because of Hewitt, after realizing that I liked him more than I like to admit, I find it hard to stay away from him, it's like everytime I'm away from him, thoughts of him consume my mind, and it makes it hard for me to think about anything else.

And staying back in Italy, knowing that I feel this way, is not the best of ideas, so I decided to come back with Stefano, and yesterday after I got back, I did not expect him to show up at my hotel room, but he did and we fucked again and then I kissed him, after we had sex, I kissed him, not because I had to, but because I wanted to, I don't know why but there was just something pulling me to him, and I couldn't stop myself.

I don't want to make him know that I like him, but when I'm around him I just can't seem to put a lid on how I feel, and if I keep being reckless like that with him, he'll know and then things will become awkward between the both of us, that's what I don't want.
I don't want anyone to know that I do like him, which is still a shock to me too, I wasn't supposed to like him, we were just fooling around, it started that day I kissed him, I shouldn't have kissed him, because maybe if I didn't, then I never would have realized that I like him.

I had that to worry about now, but thank fuck I don't have to worry about my feelings for Stefano and him finding out, because my mom already did the honours of telling him on my behalf, a moment I wasn't so grateful for, but I'm glad I got it out of the way, because now I don't have any secrets I'm keeping from him and it's like we wiped the slate of our friendship clean and starting afresh.

It actually went better than I expected, I was half expecting him to start acting weird around me, or just completely distance himself from me, but he was acting very normal, even asking me about it, like he was curious, and it actually warmed my heart, he didn't treat me any different even after knowing that I had feelings for him.

If anything, I think the transparency brought us closer together than before, because now he's always hanging out with me, if he's not with Matteo then he's wanting to hang out with me.
Like today that he called me over to Spade's house, said they had a new weapon they were testing, he's an arms dealer so it doesn't really surprised me.

I made it to Spade's mansion and immediately one of Spade's men I think intercepted me outside and was currently leading me towards the gun room, where Stefano and Matteo were at, I noticed the guy kept stealing glances at me, and he had this look in his eyes, it was actually making me feel funny.
He was tall, same height as me, darkish brown hair, and I noticed he has mismatched pair of eyes, one black and the other brown.

We made it to the gun room, the same one Spade had invited me to the first time I came here, it's actually a bummer he's not here today, Stefano said he traveled out, and Nate isn't exactly a part of Mafia stuff, so he won't be present either, just Matteo and Stefano.

The guy in front of me made to open the door but my hands shot out exactly the same time his touched the knob, making my hand rest on his, causing him to tense up, he looked up at me and I saw a slight tinge of red blush on his cheek, it made a smile to tug at my lips "don't worry about it, I can take it from here" I rushed out but he just shook his head and bit his lips

"No actually it's fine" he rushed out, and I slowly nodded and let go of his very warm hands smirking to myself before he slowly turned the knob and pushed the door open, stepping inside first while I followed behind him, the room was exactly as I remembered it.