Out here, it's all business, but my mind? It's back home. Every day I'm away, I feel that pull, knowin' Lena and baby girl waitin' on me. But I got things I need to handle, stuff that ain't just gon' fix itself. I'm doin' this so they don't ever have to worry 'bout a thing.
Every mornin', I check my phone first thing, seein' if Lena texted, if she needs anythin'. I know she got security and her mom close, but I still feel like I should be there, protectin' my girls myself.
This life ain't easy, but it's somethin' I been in for a long time. Can't just step away overnight, even though I know Lena want me to. And truth is, I want that for myself too. A business that's legit, that lets me stay home. But for now, I gotta handle what's in front of me.
The Job
Every meetin', every move out here gotta be perfect, 'cause one slip-up could mess up everything. I stay focused, makin' sure I ain't leavin' no loose ends. Got too much on the line, too much ridin' on me.
Sometimes the homies joke, askin' me why I'm so serious all of a sudden, but they don't get it. When you got a family dependin' on you, you move different. Ain't nothin' casual no more.
End of the day, all I want is to get back safe, see Lena's face, hold my lil' girl. But I know I got a few more days out here, gotta wrap up these last things. Then I'm headin' home for good.
Late-Night Thoughts
At night, when things quiet down, that's when it hit the hardest. Layin' in bed, knowin' Lena probably got baby girl asleep by now, probably sittin' on that couch we picked out together, wonderin' if I'm good.
I pull out my phone, text her just to remind her I'm thinkin' of her. "Miss you, baby. Be home soon." And when she hit me back, "Miss you too. Can't wait," it feel like I'm a little closer to bein' back.
This life been my way for a minute, but every day I'm out here, I feel it more and more—I'm ready for somethin' different, somethin' real, somethin' that keep me home with my family. And soon as this trip done, I'm makin' moves to make that happen.
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Unfinished Business
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