I been holdin' it down with Que gone, keepin' busy with baby girl and my classes. But every day, it feel like somethin' missin'. He been textin' me, checkin' in, tellin' me he miss us, but it still ain't the same as him bein' here.
This mornin', I got up early, went through my routine with Amina. She's startin' to babble more, lil' sounds that light up my whole day. It's moments like these I wish Que was here, seein' her grow, feelin' the way she make everythin' feel right.
Talks with Mama
Mama came over today, and as soon as she stepped through the door, I could see she was lookin' me over, tryin' to see if I was really okay. She been worryin' 'bout me ever since Que left, and I get it. She know what I been feelin', but she also know I'm gon' stay strong.
"So, how you holdin' up, baby?" she asked, sittin' down across from me while Amina played on the floor with her toys.
"I'm alright, Ma," I said, tryna keep my tone steady. "Just missin' him, you know?"
She nodded, reachin' over to squeeze my hand. "He'll be back soon. And maybe one day, he'll find somethin' that let him stay close."
I nodded, lettin' her words settle in. I wanted that too, wanted him to find somethin' safe, steady. I wanted a life for us where we didn't have to worry every time he walked out that door.
Afternoon Reflection
Later in the afternoon, after Mama left, I sat on the couch while Amina napped, just thinkin' about everything. This life Que got, it ain't easy. I know he's doin' it for us, makin' sure we good, but sometimes I wonder if it's worth it. We could have somethin' real, somethin' different, if he could let this all go.
And I know he loves us—me and Amina. Ain't no question about that. But I also know this life keep pullin' him back, like he got unfinished business.
Nighttime Thoughts
As the day faded, I put Amina to bed, brushin' her lil' curls back as she drifted off to sleep. When I was finally alone, I checked my phone, hopin' for a message from Que. And sure enough, there it was.
"Missin' you, baby. Can't wait to be home."
I smiled, textin' him back, lettin' him know we was missin' him too. I told him about Amina's new babbles, how she lit up every time I mentioned his name, and how we was waitin' for him to come back to us.
In my heart, I knew I was gon' stand by him, no matter what. But I just hoped he'd find his way to somethin' safer, somethin' that kept him close. 'Cause at the end of the day, all I wanted was to build this life with him, steady and together.
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Unfinished Business
RomanceLena thought she was doing the right thing when she broke up with Que, the love of her life, just days before heading off to college. After all, they were headed in two different directions-she was focused on building a future, and he was tied to th...
