Beyond the Beats

Chapter 72. Hypocrite

I returned to my practice room, and my team was concerned when they saw me all frustrated. They asked me if I had again gone to the boys' room and got teased. I lied to them that it wasn't the case, and I was just worried about my hairstyle being messed up.

Others didn't ask further, but Suhana wasn't convinced. She asked me if Akshay and I fought, so I went ahead with the lie and told her it was a small banter. She told me not to think about it and focus on our rehearsals.

I was feeling really bad and irritated. Again, I ended up treating Tejas badly, but it was not completely my fault this time. He wasn't answering and was cross-interrogating me.

As long as Ayzere is still here, I guess I won't be getting a proper answer. Tejas was enjoying teasing me earlier, and it is enough to confirm from his words that he is interested in me, but now, I am not sure what kind of interest that is. Is he in a dilemma? I mean, Ayzere did confess to him. Moreover, she is a close friend of his. He must be thinking something about her.

Even if he told me that there's nothing going on between him and Ayzere, it isn't impossible that something might happen between them. She hasn't left yet, and as Hriaan said, she is continuously coming to their studio. But why is Tejas not staying at his home? Is he running away from her? He is too kind to ask her to leave even if she is bothering him. Why am I being like this to him? I am myself not confessing, but I want to know how he feels for me. What a hypocrite!

I decided to apologize to Tejas for my misbehaviour. I knew I was getting confused by him, but it was my responsibility to not let my emotions take over my logic. And I had forgotten the most important thing too.

What if Tejas had confirmed my doubt of him liking me? What would I have done then? Am I really in a position to have a romantic rendezvous at the moment? And he is Tejas for goodness' sake. I can lie to my friends and even my family, but he easily catches my lies. I shouldn't take this risk again.

I reminded myself that I hadn't fully thought through my plan. My guts were continuously telling me that my thoughts regarding Tejas's attention towards me were right, but I didn't know how I was supposed to handle them if they materialised.

Also, I was kind of feeling both happy and stupid while imagining weird stuff. I kept repeating the conversation between me and Tejas in my mind and realised that I needed some guidance. Therefore, after finishing my team rehearsals, I left the practice room and avoided Tejas.

I saw him still practicing with his team, and he also noticed me rushing towards the exit, but I refused to let my heart control me this time. I ran off and dived into the first autorickshaw that I saw.

Okay, let's go and ask my best friend Arushi about my concern. She is just like me. Of course, she has almost zero experience regarding this, but she reads a lot of romance novels and is very smart. I won't be able to sort out this issue by myself.

Also, I know I hate Ayzere, but she is also a girl. She likes Tejas just like I do. Tejas even rejected her, but still she is trying. I should also put some effort and be clear about what I want. Just imagining Tejas accepting my confession or him telling me about his true feelings is not going to solve anything. Stupid emotions - I wish I can take out my heart and squeeze the hell out of it.

My impatience was growing, and I had already repeated the questions I was going to ask Arushi a zillion times. I was prepared when I reached her home, and since it was Saturday the next day, I was ready to sacrifice my whole night for the important conversation.

My best friend opened the door, and I hugged her.

"Aru, I need your help," I told her.

"What happened?" she asked.