UNDER Series #5: Controlling her desires.

DRIX POV (Part 3)

"Drix, are you okay?" Biglang pumatik ang utak ko ng marinig ang pinsan ko.

"Hmm?"

"You're zoning out, lagi ka ng tulala since last month," he hummed. "You can't even focus on doing our mission with Hera."

Walang buhay akong tumingin sa kan'ya, pero sinagot ang mga lumabas sa bunganga n'ya.

I'm physically, and emotionally drained with everything.

Nakakapagod na.

I just killed the woman I thought I cared off, then I need to protect the woman I once loved but threw me aside, and now...I need to take care of my brother's babies.

Nasapo ko nalang ang ulo ko dahil sa dami ng iniisip ko, sabayan pa ng dami ng inuutos nila Mom, and Dad sa akin.

Sometimes, I think that Hera was right. That I was just an errand boy of this world.

Lahat inuutusan ako, lahat pinapasunod ako sa gusto nila, at wala akong ibang magawa kundi sumunod.

Parte ako ng pangalawa sa pinaka malakas na pamilya, pero walang magawa kundi sundin ang nauuna.

I still can't move on Hera, so I thought accepting this mission to protect her will help me. But, no, mas lalo akong lumapit sa kan'ya, at mas lalo ko s'yang nakikita na malapit sa lalaking ipinalit n'ya sa akin.

Mas madalas kong makitang nakangti s'ya, kapag kasama n'ya ang lalaking 'yun.

And, it fucking hurts like hell.

Sabihin na natin na merong babaeng dumating sa akin, which is Zhy, but I can't deny na si Hera pa rin ang mahal ko.

Tangina, mas lalo ko lang sinasaktan ang sarili ko.

I need to distract myself, I need to drown myself in work, and other things to make myself move on.

Masaya na s'ya, habang ako dito miserable sa pagtapon n'ya sa akin na parang laruang pinag sawaan n'ya.

Gusto ko na lang magpahinga, pagod na pagod na ako.

Paulit ulit ko na lang na ririnig ang pangalan ko, kasunod ng mga utos nila sa akin.

Drix mo si Hera, Drix gawin mo 'to, Drix pumunta ka dito, pero hindi, Drix, ayos ka lang ba? Drix, are you tired? Drix, how are you?

Wala na, wala na akong naririnig na ganon, ang tagal ko na simula ng marinig ko 'yun.

Cause' for the second time, my Kuya gone missing again but I wasn't the only one he left this time, but also his wife, and babies alone.

Like what happened before, I was left alone again.

May asawa na nga si Kuya, pero ako pa rin ang nag aalaga dahil sa nawala sa sarili si Ate Lewis dahil sa nangyari sa akin.

Biglang bumalik sa akin ang ginawa ko kay Ixzyke.

I mercilessly shot her on her womanhood, as I saw my niece's foot hanged from my sister in laws outside.

I was terrified, that was fucking scary yet I don't have someone to lean on.

As, I need to be strong for his wife, and babies.

Since that day, the woman with that bloody eye vanished from my mind, as the terror of my brain has been replaced with the scene of my niece's legs.

Nahilamos ko na lang ang mga palad ko sa mukha ko dahil hindi ko na alam ang uunahin ko.

"Your grades are gradually dropping." Cadis spoke again.