Austin Butler Imagines 🍒

Jealousy...💋

~CONTEXT~

Jealousy wasn't something new for you, in fact it's a feeling that's been instilled into you for your entire life. Something that you've experienced for as long as you can remember. Growing up, you always fell second place to your younger sister; she was prettier than you, she was smarter than you, she had more friends than you, she was more popular than you and she excelled in all of her extracurricular activities. There was no hiding the fact that she was your parents favourite child, and by no means did they ever try to make it subtle. The amount of shows of yours they missed to go and see your sisters, under the guise that 'hers would be better'. The amount of artworks you gave them that ended up in the trash or boxed up in the attic, while your sisters was framed because 'her drawing was better'. They even went as far as missing your college graduation because 'your degree wasn't as impressive as your sisters'. Your entire life you had spent living in your sisters shadow, never being good enough for your parents and never feeling good enough for anyone else, including yourself. Eventually, you cut off both your parents and your sister, having had enough of their shit and needing a healthy change in life, one that benefitted you. It was weird at first, and you went through a phase where you wanted to break no-contact, but you fought through it and now you no longer care about having a relationship with them. Life's been better and happier since you cut them off, and you're not about to ruin that. 

Despite cutting them off, their behaviour and their neglect had already had its affect on you, and the damage was already done. As a result of your parents behaviour, you always felt like you were second best at everything you did, like someone else could always be better than you no matter what it was. Whether it was studying, working your job, making friends or even being in a relationship. You never felt entirely good enough and there was always the lingering thought in the back of your mind that there's someone out there that could do it better than you, that is better than you. This made life incredibly difficult, unnecessarily difficult, and you suffered because of it.  Jealousy issues arose, and they only worsened with time. The overwhelming feeling of envy, jealousy, led to a lot of your friendships ending and a lot of your romantic relationships ending, which you despised. You hated that you got jealous easily, you hated that it was such a big problem in your life and you so desperately wanted to fix it. However, nothing you did ever worked, so you felt as if you were stuck feeling like this. 

However, when you met Austin, that was all about to change. When you and Austin met, you were working a nightshift at a bar, serving drinks and talking to the drunk patrons, the usual. Austin had come to the bar after a long shift at work, sitting down at the bar and ordering a neat whiskey, needing something strong to take the edge off. As you handed him his drink, he started a conversation with you; something that caught you a little off guard but you didn't mind, you'd lost almost all your friends so you appreciated the company. After that, you two spent a lot of time together. He would come to see you at the bar regularly, he would ask you out on days out and even take you on dates, and after 3 months of this he asked you to be his girlfriend. Everything was great, amazing even, and for the first time in a while you felt happy, at ease. 

Your relationship progressed slowly, but it was beautiful; you were together for 3 years before he proposed, and you were engaged for 2 years before getting married. Though to others this was strange, neither of you minded, as it meant that your relationship had chance to grow and mature naturally, allowing the two of you  to grow closer and closer over time. Throughout the relationship, your jealousy issues occurred quite often; flaring up at the most random of times and at the most inconvenient of times, however Austin always had his ways of easing the worries. Whether it was telling you how amazing you were and how much he loved you, or reassuring you that he only had eyes for you and no other woman could ever take him away from you, he always had a way of making sure your jealousy didn't get out of hand or make you feel like shit. Unlike any other boyfriends you had, he took care in reassuring you, making sure that you knew he was all about you and nobody else. You appreciated it a great deal, and it meant the world to you that your issues didn't bother him. In doing this, he proved to you that he really loved you, and that you really were the only one for him.