High achiever
People pleaser
I'll be what you want me to
I'll succeed
But don't show greed
Just to make you proud
I'll get those victories
And if it takes some injuries
I dont care about the price
If I need good grades
I will hide my blades
Because surely I am fine
I will smile
Nod once in a while
I'll do whatever I am told
I'll pretend that you're my friend
What I thought you said
Surely, that's not what you meant
I'll laugh when you're joking
Don't show I am broken
Love to be the victim
I'll try to blend in
Be one of you
As I've always been
Maybe it's my superpower to deceive
Because now our teachers believe
And suddenly I'm fine again
I'm finally integrated
So long awaited
Eventually, I'm liked
On the surface, I seem happy
So there's no reason to still worry
They stop paying attention
But if the school burned down
I'd still be alone
And then it's my fault again
All my truths were lies
And I have to pay the price
Although I made them up for you
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I'm not that happy with how this poem turned out, but I know I won't edit it again. I don't even know why I'm only posting it now after letting it sit as a draft for a week.
At least there are some lines I really like.
YOU ARE READING
It does get better.
PoetryPeople say it will get better. But to be fair, most of them never were in your place. They say you will get happy again, but how can they know? I've struggled with trauma, mental illnesses, and self harm for many years. These are (mostly) poems - ab...
