I met Percabeth

One Year Anniversary!

A/N OKAY UM....... HOW DO I PUT THIS.

okay deep breaths. First off, wow it's been 2 months since I updated and I honest to god cannot express how sorry I am, like I can't... I am so mad at myself as a human being, and I just- I, I am so so so so so sorry because you guys are honestly the best...I need a name to call you guys, if you have suggestions leave them cause I'm still not sure, but anyways you guys are honestly the most supportive, honest, loving, sincere people I've ever had the honour to meet and you honestly deserve so much better of an author and I'm just so sorry you guys, I'm so sorry.

So I owe you guys an explanation and the thing is; I just have a lot right now, school is becoming so stressful and we're just moving too fast, my family is growing so distant and I don't know how to talk to them about anything really, I feel like my life is passing by too fast and that soon my entire youth will be over and I won't have anything to look back on and think yeah I'm glad I did that, I don't know what I want to become and I need to soon. I just don't know and I'm having daily panic attacks because I'm so imperfect. I want so bad to be perfect, I want to be good enough and I know that's there really no way of reaching perfection but that doesn't stop me from beating myself up everytime I say something wrong, or do the wrong thing, or make someone mad or disappointed. I just can't stand letting people down because when I do I'm one step farther from perfection, it's another mistake that makes me flawed and I hate it. I have such an amazing friend too that's constantly helping me but I feel like I'm not good enough for her, that she deserves someone so much better and I don't want to lose her because she's honestly the best friend anyone could ask for and I don't know guys, I don't know.

WELL THAT WAS UM.... YEAH. IF YOU GUYS READ THAT IT JUST FURTHER PROVES HOW WONDERFULLY AMAZING YOU GUYS ARE AND HOW MUCH I DON'T DESERVE YOU, BUT ANYWAYS ON WITH THE STORY NOW. THIS IS FROM PERCY'S POV.
(Percabeth isnt official and they're not at camp of any of that... Basically it's an AU)

"So dude," Shawn plopped down beside me with such force that I spilled some of my drink.

"Yes?" I sighed, the guys were all over and we were in my basement at the moment.

"Any new chicks?" Shawn chuckled. Everyone groaned, Shawn was constantly trying to pick up some new girl, no matter how many others he'd dated before. Why girls still went out with him, considering his reputation, I'm not sure.

"Nope, none." I rolled my eyes and turned to focus on James and Ryan playing ping pong across the room.

Ryan caught the ball in his free hand, and leaned on the table, facing us. "Oh Percy's got a chick alright, she's just not new."

"What?"

"Annabeth." Ryan stated, this time it was Shawn's turn to groan.

"Really dude, you're still caught up over her?"

I shrugged my shoulders, it's not my fault that she was super pretty, super smart, and super talented at basically  everything.

Shawn placed his cup on the table in front of him. "Look man, you've been best friends since kindergarten; I don't wanna be mean but wouldn't it be a little awkward if you started dating?"

"I don't know, I've never really thought it through." I lied. Truth was I'd thought about it many of times, in fact it was always in the back of my mind, a snagging thought that would pop up whenever there was a lull in brain activity.

"Look Perce." Shawn began; I shared a look with James and Ryan as we all knew what was coming. "You're the captain of the soccer team, good looking, you have have abs and girls who would say yes to anything you proposed in an instant. You could be living the life, but instead you're moping around after some girl you've been in love with since junior year."