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Kejadian gue teriak di party itu udah seminggu berlalu dan hidup gue sekarang masih aman-aman aja. Awalnya Diana sempet kesel gitu sama gue soalnya gue fangirl tapi ga tau tempat umum, dan akhirnya gue yang minta maaf. Gue tau, gue salah.

Kapan sih gue bener dimata orang tentang masalah fangirling? Rasanya ga pernah dan ga akan pernah. Ha ha ha. Tawa ae gue mah.

Sekarang gue lagi tidur-tiduran dikasur sambil ngomel-ngomel karena streaming Good Morning America belum aja dimulai, padahal gue udah nunggui hampir lima belas menit dan masih tetep iklan. Sialan emang, kalo gini caranya kuota gue bisa abis.

Dan pada akhirnya, streaming yang gue tunggu-tunggu muncul di depan layar laptop gue. Awalnya gue cuma cengo ngeliatin mereka dan ngedenger fans disana teriak. Mereka teriak bener-bener histeris sampe tanpa sadar gue nangis.

Kapan gue bisa menjadi satu diantara mereka? Rasanya emang beneran mustahil. Imajinasi.

"Welcome you guys. So the last time you in the park was November 2013 and there were five of you then. It was Zayn here."

Anjing, si pembawa acara kenapa harus ngomongin Zayn juga... rasanya gue pengen nangis kejer. Sumpah. Gue kangen banget sama Zayn. Kapan dia bisa kembali lagi ke 1D?

"And Zayn tweeted this now 'Proud of my boys the new single is sick. Big love.' And how do you feel about it then?"

Oke, sekarang gue makin baper. Sialan.

"Obviously it's different... you lose a member of the team and you're so close together. But we're still going stronger and stronger. We're all still here."

Gue berani bersumpah kalo sekarang gue beneran kehabisan kata-kata dan gue ga bisa komentar apa-apa. Rasanya gue cuma pengen nangis denger apa yang diomongin sama Liam. Dia bener-bener bikin gue semangat lagi, kata-katanya itu loh bener-bener sweet.

"So clearly, the new song is Drag Me Down not drag you guys down already number 1 in iTunes and number 1 in 86 countries."

Gue ngikutin interview-nya dengan ga bias berenti gemeteran dan teriak. Untung aja orang tua gue lagi berangkat, kalo engga gue udah kena siraman rohani kali karena teriak malem-malem gini.

"I'm Louis from one father to another wanna congratulate you to be upcoming father. How's your feeling?"

Hah. Anjing. Kenapa harus nyinggung masalah ini coba. Si yang interview bego ih, masa nanya hal ginian. Gossip doang elah. LOUIS UDAH NIKAH SAMA HARRY 2013 KEMARIN WOY.

"Thank you, yeah. Obviously, it's a very exciting time. I'm buzzing. Thank you."

HJGIDAHOSCXFTNIFAI LOUIS BARU AJA KONFIRMASI KALO DIA BENERAN BAKAL JADI AYAH YA TUHAN. Gue lemes. Seketika gue lemes. Air mata gue keluar gitu aja.

It's a very exciting time in my eyes, Tommo.

"Harry, you seems quite today."

Ha. Harry emang keliatannya kesel banget pas Louis konfirmasi kalo dia bakalan jadi ayah. Harry keliatannya emang bener-bener bete, terus buang muka mulu.

Harry must be jealous.

Ya ampun, kalo gini caranya gue bisa nangis darah. I mean wake up Lewis you're gay as hell. Fuck. You've already married to Harry Styles. Lo udah punya suami. Apa lo ngajakin si Brianna ena-ena karna Harry ga punya sel ovum jadi dia ga bisa hamil? Kalo gitu alesannya, gue mau nyumbangin diri kok. Eh.

Tapi sumpah, gue bener-bener down dan shock pastinya. Tau kan lo gimana rasanya pas lo denger berita bahwa idola lo bakalan punya anak? Dan bahkan, anaknya bukan anak dari pacarnya melainkan sahabat. Apalagi kalo lo adalah seorang larry shipper. Lo pasti tau rasanya.

Tangisan gue makin deres. Gue ga nyangka kalo Louis baru aja konfirmasi bahwa dia bakalan jadi ayah.

Gue mau mati.

Tell me this is just a dream. Cos I'm really not fine at all.

You really drag me down, Louis Tomlinson.

Gue ngikutin GMA dengan mendem rasa tangis. Gila. That moment when Harry's high note kedenger biasa aja ditelinga gue, bahkan bikin gue nangis. Gue bener-bener ga percaya dengan semua ini.

Akhirnya, GMA selesai dan gue masih tetep ada dalam posisi gue; badan melengkung sambil nangis.

Tapi setelah beberapa jam menangis. Gue merenung. Dan akhirnya menyimpulkan bahwa ini cuma akal-akalannya Modest!. Alasan gue kenapa ini adalah setting-an Modest! sialan adalah;

1. Brianna is still clubbing, smoking and drinking. As a good mom, she won't do that for her baby and Louis won't let her either because he said it was 'exciting time' and he was buzzing.

2. She went to the beach, her pregnancy is about 3 or 4 months but we saw nothing on her tummy.

3. Louis and the fucking Brianna haven't been seen together since 3 months ago. How the fuck she told him. Was she like; "Oh hey Louis babe. I'm your best friend and do you still remember how we did the one night stand? Because I'm pregnant your baby." And Louis was like; "Wow! I'm buzzing and very exciting!"

4. Brianna's family said they wanted privacy. Yet her grandma 'unprivated' her twitter account, posted a pict of Brianna and Louis, deleted it and then private her account again. Privacy in my ass dude.

5. And, why did Simon or Modest! let Louis to tell the whole wide world that he is gonna be a father? Wouldn't it bad for the band's career?

6. The interviewer asked Harry for being quiet and he was just like fake smile and he really looked so uncomfortable. We all know Harry was the worst actor ever.

7. How about... matching tattoos? What is matching tattoos for?

8. Larry is real as fuck. You can't deny.

The next drama; Brianna Lost Her Baby for 8 Months Pregnancy.

Well, Modest! is such a good author.

Gue menarik napas panjang dan akhirnya memutuskan untuk ngirim dm ke Louis.

Me: louiss

Me: omg pls tell me it wasn't true

Me: you weren't that dumb to have one night stand

Me: and you do have a husband, harry

Me: modest is such a good author

Me: why do they keep ruining your life?

Me: and why do they keep ruining a relationship between you and harry?

Me: is it all because of money?

Me: is it all because of popularity?

Me: I don't know

Me: I mean, how dare they are

Me: I know you're human too

Me: it's illegal to ruin someone's life, man. That's rude

Louis Tomlinson: why do people keep saying that larry is real?

Louis Tomlinson: it's fake baby

Louis Tomlinson: can you please stop the larry drama, please?

Louis Tomlinson: love you x

Louis Tomlinson: sorry for spamming :) x

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Hiiiii!