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"I knew that you will be so angry and dissapointed because of what he did to you. But you have to get over this, forgive him. I'm sure he didn't mean to do this, things that he has done was out of his control," Harry ceramahin gue saat gue baru aja duduk di samping kursi pengemudi.

Gue ga ngerti Harry ngomong apa, beneran deh. "What do you mean?"

"When you don't want me to move,

But you tell me to go,

What do you –"

"Not, now. It's not the right time to tell a joke," gue menyela. Omong-omong suara Harry bagus banget anjir waktu nyanyi What Do You Mean, lebih halus dan lembut. Fak men.

Harry nyengir. "Right," dia ngangguk. "Our life is controlled by the management in order to make our image in front of the camera. You know, right?"

"What is the point exactly?"

"He couldn't do anything because the management wanted him to date you, but he is not able to tell you anything when he needs to. I was not agree before when he told me the scenery, so he and I both were looking for someone else that we could pay and when we got the girl, the management didn't agree with us."

"Why did you guys do that?"

"Because, we didn't want to ruin our fan's life. This is going to be wild very soon."

"You mean like... my life will be damaged?"

"Yeah," ada sedikit jeda antara kata yang bakalan Harry omongin lagi, dan jedanya lama banget sedangkan gue ga ada niatan untuk buka mulut. Tapi pada akhirnya, Harry ngelanjutin omongannya. "But he won't let that happen. Believe me when I say that your life will be normal, soon. Without us."

"I don't know, Harry. This is not easy to get through this," gue narik napas panjang dan nyenderin leher gue yang tegang. "I'm only 17 and I'm a pupil. I may kill myself when the photos are –"

"I told you, he won't let your life be damaged. Believe what I'm saying, he will not and even if he will, I will not let him to do that. You can count on me," Harry ninggin volume suaranya dan itu bener-bener dalem banget. Walaupun nadanya tinggi, tapi tetep aja kedengeran lembut dan peduli. He's an angel.

"But what if –"

"No what ifs, Avril. If you don't believe him, then you can believe me."

Gue ga tau sejak kapan dada gue mulai sesek dan tiba-tiba air mata gue tumpah gitu aja, gue nangis dengan nyaring dan gue tau gue lagi ngapain di depan siapa. Dapat gue asumsikan bahwa muka gue sekarang udah kayak gorila mau melahirkan. "Did anything that you guys do to me, like being nice and funny and making me laugh and being so stupid, were fake? Were that –"

"It wasn't, we have a lot of joy when we were with you and your friend. You are so nice, beautiful, funny, and we like how you don't freak out in front of us. If what we did to you was fake and behind the sceneries, then I wouldn't be here, pick you up while crying a river inside of the toilet and lying that she was defecating with the fake annoying sound of fart."

"That's a very sweet of you, may I hug you?"

"Hug me when I'm driving? Is it possible?"

"It is," gue peluk lengan Harry yang lagi nyetir dan gosh, his skin is so soft and his perfume smells so fucking good. He is so warm. I can't describe how comfortable it is to hug him, this is just so... gah, I can't describe. I have no idea.