BACK TO THE HELL HOLE (book.2)

Traumatized

So.... I told stephony who my crush was and she was traumatized, literally. This happened a week ago, and I don't think she will ever get over it. It all happened when:
*flashback*
Stephony was going to my house to work on two maps that Mrs.Kochan assigned us. One of them was just the continents, the other one was the world map, not every single country, but at least 1/3 of the world. We had to label, fine line, and colour. We only finished labelling the world map, we finished the other map though. Once we finished most of our homework, she was trying to guess who my crush was. First she tried guessing the first letter of my crush's name. I told her I would give her the last letter of his name. She guessed some names and I said no to all of them. I told her the second to last letter next, she guessed names that I didn't even know existed. Then I gave her the third letter of his name, she guessed really weird names, and didn't get it right. I told her the second letter of his name. She still didn't guess it right, while she kept guessing I was debating whether I should tell her or not, I knew she would be scarred for life, I didn't want that to happen to her, she already has enough on her plate. I knew she would be shocked, I knew she would freak out. Eventually, I had to tell her, she was practically begging, dying, to know who my crush was. Then came the moment, I told her. It turned out worse than I had expected it to be, she curled up into a ball on my bed, and kept rocking back and forth, while I was trying to calm her down. Her eyes were full of shock, and... Fear. Her eyes were ready to come out of her eye sockets, she was so traumatized. Before I told her my crush, she was already starving to death. After I told her she said she wasn't hungry. That was not normal. She would always be hungry, whether she just ate something, to the point where she'd be starving to death. When those words came out of her mouth.. I knew.. She would never be the same. Now that she knew who my crush was, conveniently, I had a box of tissues, I asked if she wanted to rip some. She took a bunch and started ripping it to shreds. I felt so bad at that moment, she even started to throw some empty Coke bottles around, which I let her. She was so freaking traumatized. She's one of the three people that I told. I already expected something like this to happen, but what I didn't expect was for her to be traumatized. One of the reasons why I didn't want to tell her is because she already has some personal problems, and me telling her my crush, would crush the life out of her. Right then and now, I knew she would never ever in her entire life be cured of her trauma. Or it seemed like it. That was how bad it was, it was so chaotic my room was a disaster. About half an hour later she felt a bit better, once again she was hungry. I felt a little bit better knowing my friend wasn't going to starve herself to death. It almost put me to tears seeing her in such agony. But I knew, one day, if I didn't tell her, she would find out eventually. I told her I didn't plan to tell moustache girl, because I knew that if this happened to stephony, telling moustache girl, she would react in an even worse matter. It was scary, knowing your friend was going crazy, not acting her usual self. She seemed pained, knowing that I wouldn't tell Moustache girl, she was very close to both of us. I promised her that once I get rid of this crush I would tell her. Stephony was trying to give me tips on how to get rid of my crush on.. That person. I could see determination in her eyes at that moment, she knew why I wanted to get rid of the crush, and it was a pretty damn good reason. So from then on,until we never meet again, She will help me get rid of the crush.
*flashback over*
Pretty dramatic I should say... This proves that middle school also has drama. And it also proves, one of the many reasons, why I hate my life.
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With Christmas time approaching, I honestly don't know what would happen if I didn't tell stephony then and there. If she found out later, she might react even worse....5 people now know who my crush is and I feel like something bad is gonna happen...
Bye...~