BACK TO THE HELL HOLE (book.2)

Bad or good week?

Monday: DRAMA & STRESS
Tuesday: DRAMA & STRESS
Wednesday: DRAMA & STRESS
Thursday: DRAMA & STRESS
Friday: DRAMA & STRESS
Saturday: DRAMA & STRESS
Sunday: DRAMA & STRESS
BASICALLY MY WEEK!
I swear people have thrown UNEXPLAINABLE BULLSHIT AT ME!!!!! Like some of these drama problems are just merely little fucks. I don't give a fuck if someone stole your FUCKING pen, ITS JUST A FUCKING PEN SHUT THE FUCK UP! YOU CAN JUST GET A NEW ONE, OR PLAN TO STEAL IT BACK, I DONT NEED TO KNOW ABOUT THAT SHIT!!!!!!!!!! WHY CANT PEOLE UNDERSTAND THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN REAL DRAMA AND BULLSHIT!!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY HAS HUMANITY GOTTEN THIS DUMB?!?!
*cough cough* ahem.... Now if you excuse me I'm gonna die because of man kind's stupidity.

As for the stress, I had to get -200 degrees Celsius, liquid nitrogen put on my foot! The doctor says it won't hurt, well it's BELOW 200 DEGREES CELSIUS!!!! HOW THE FUCK WILL IT NOT HURT?!??! WHAT THE FUCK DOC?!?! WHY YOU ALWAYS LYING? WHY THE FUCK YOU LYING??? I am sooooooo stressed about the student led conferences I mean I ACTUALLY have work that I got A's on in ALL subjects, like that's a fucking miracle! I always sucked at science yet for science I got an A for my test and lab!!!! LIKE THATS A MIRACLE RIGHT THERE. I'm also stressed about my crush, I mean I know he likes someone else but it's EXTREMELY hard to stop liking him. It's been over four months, past four fucking months. Im so scared that I won't be able to get over him, it's just UGHHHHHHHH. THIS IS WHY I HATE CRUSHES BECAUSE I KNOW THAT THIS WILL HAPPEN TO ME!!!!

Besides that, I'm so nervous for the speech finals because its A LOT of pressure. LIKE A SHITLOAD. I'm just scared I'm gonna screw up in front of everyone, and I REALLY DONT WANNA GO TO SCHOOL FINALS PERIOD. I'm sooooooo scared.....😭😭😭😭 why life gotta do dis to mehhhhhhh?!?! Like honestly why can't life go fuck up someone else's life, like no thanks, why don't you just fuck yourself life, And multiply that by 999 billion. While experiencing the pain from liquid nitrogen, multiplied by 999 trillion. I just wanna stay in my room, with my friends, have a Starbucks barista prepare drinks for us at no cost, have unlimited food at no cost, and just watch Netflix for one week. Like seriously IM THIS CLOSE TO BEATING SOMONE UP. Also why is it always girls that get the worse things in life ever. Like seriously and guys think they have it hard. Like excuse me have you experienced cramps, bloating, and disgusting smells, and shit for 1 week a month, not to mention it comes out of your private!!!!! IS THERE ANYTHING THAT CAN TOP THAT GUYS?!? CUZ IF THERE IS THEN PLEASE COMMENT!! ( do I even have any guy readers? Lol) talliver is acting creepy............. Like he texts me.... Everyday.... Never missing one day.... No matter what.... Like creep alert.... Not to mention he calls me a bunch of nicknames such as: little miss sunshine, cath- Kun, cath-sama, cath-San, decaf, caffeine, and (I hate him for this) he calls me a FUCKING CHILD!!!!!! IM NOT A FUCKING CHILD IM 12 FOR GODS SAKE!!!! AND IM TURNING 13 THIS YEAR!!!!! He knows I hate it, and he always, always, makes me feel guilty. It's not even funny anymore like seriously bruh. He's also scarred me many, many times. I wish I could forget about those things he told me...

I'm done, I'm fucking done, I'm always the one in the wrong when truthfully it's the person that's saying I'm wrong, that's in the wrong. I'm done with the bullshit that people throw at me. I'm done with TOLERATING The bullshit excuses people come up with. IM FUCKING DONE WITH BEING SOMEONE EVERYONE CAN STEP ON.
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As you can see I am mentally breaking down, and DYING inside.
~BAI