BACK TO THE HELL HOLE (book.2)

The real world

Honestly I never expected this to happen to me, again. I've been back stabbed countless times in elementary school, and I was one of those, " keep it to myself and forgive" people. So I never ever did anything about being back stabbed. I guess this is why I've become " cold hearted". I never trusted people with anything, unless it comes to desperate measures. I could trust lollipop, Stephony, and moustache girl with only 1/12 of my stuff. I never expected this to happen but, I told moustache girl who my crush was, and we swore that we wouldn't tell anyone our crushes. But then, my crush texted moustache girl, and they were having a round of truth or dare. Moustache girl picked truth, and my crush asked who my crush was. She said that she couldn't tell at first. She was also texting me, and she said "*crush's name* asked me who your crush is, what should I say? " then she asked if she should say the fake crush, I told her no, I told her to just say that she wasn't going to tell him, and I told her not to tell him. After that she texted him I can't tell you. Then he said he promised he would keep it between them. Then that was when she told him, who my crush was. She legitimately said, " it's you" and I have proof! When I saw that, I literally felt so betrayed, and she's one of my best friends, and probably one of the only people I COULD trust! Yet she chose to back stab me. Why? Why? What did I do? I told her crush that she liked him when she said that I could. I never NEVER gave her permission to tell my crush who I liked. And now, I've been back stabbed again. AGAIN after 1 year of misery from teasing, after one year of no backstabbing, it came back. Again. Now I've finally realized the full potential of cruelty that you could ever receive from people. This, is the real world. Cruel, unforgiving, and torture. Why don't I just go die. I don't wanna live in this kind of world anymore. And it's not like anyone would care if I died. Or maybe I should switch schools, but that wouldn't help anything either, because I would probably be back stabbed again. When I saw, that mustache girl had actually texted that to him. When I saw she ACTUALLY did say that, and it wasn't a dream. I was almost in tears. At that point I couldn't take it anymore. So I texted mustache girl, and said that I had proof of it. And I thought I could trust her, but I guess I was wrong. People, are cruel beings. And I can't believe I actually trusted a person even for just a second. Now, I'm never trusting anyone, ever again.
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