BACK TO THE HELL HOLE (book.2)

Confident?

Lol I still remember the name of the song that always pisses steph off, which is confident 😅. Anyways another long ranting chapter so...be prepared.

I think I've mentioned something along the lines of; " I think my mom lowers my self esteem". Well if I haven't, then I have now! My mom literally insults me every single fucking day. She calls me ugly, fat, and some other stuff too. She says I'm too short and that I need to be taller. She tells me to be active, but when I'm TRYING to be active, she doesn't fucking let me. I don't get her logic! Anyways, she tells me this every single fucking day, and if you know me, you know that I have no self confidence whatsoever. Well maybe this is the reason why, maybe it's just cuz I've been treated this way since I was young. My mom will literally say that I'm fat, in my face. She would have no expression, and wouldn't give a shit about how much that affects my lifestyle. Does she even like me? Idk. Well right now it doesn't really seem like it. She accuses me FOR EVERYTHING, even though I never did anything. Idk what to do with my mom anymore. One minutes she's ok with me, then another minute she's insulting me calling me fat. Today she said that I had more genes from my dad's side, so in her 'theory', it's easier for me to become obese which she claims I already am. Then she starts making me feel even worse by saying that I'll end up like one of my obese relative, if I don't fucking get active. She's the one who's not letting me! So don't fucking complain, and just shut the fuck up about it! I don't need you to pile more stress on top of the stress I have EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY!!!! Wow I need to cut down on the swearing, but fuck no. UGH THERES SO MUCH MORE STRESS I WANT TO WRITE ABOUT BUT I CANT OR ELSE EVERYONE WOULD KNOW MY PERSONAL LIFE!!!! FUCK!!!!!!

Well that's it for my ranting today...fuck my life honestly.