Save Me from Myself

Chapter 5

"Esme, wake up. Its time for your morning medications." A nurse said as she took my blanket off of me.

"Aghhhhhhhhh" I groaned.

"Esmeralda, get up and take your pills. Now." She nurse commanded. I don't like being commanded. I'm not a dog.

"Make me, bitch." I groaned again. As you can probably tell, I'm not a morning person at all.

She gasped. "How dare you speak to me like that!" Oh no. The psychotic teenager cursed. That never happens (notice the sarcasm)

She ran out of my room, and I looked up to see Layla laughing her ass off.

"What" I groaned at her.

She grinned at me. "It's just... you have one hell of an attitude for a depressed girl. "

I glared at her. "1. I'm not just depressed, I have severe paranoia and I'm suicidal. And those are just my disorders, they don't define me. And 2. For a schizophrenic girl, you're pretty normal." I answered.

She glared right back at me, "Excuse you. I'm not even close to normal."

Then, the the door slammed open.

"ESME YOU HAVE A SMOKING HOT VISITOR." Joey yelled.

I laughed, "Yeah right. Who would visit me."

Joey smiled and grabbed my hand, "I don't know, but DAMN he's hot."

"Wait, are.. are you gay?" I asked.

Layla fell over laughing, and i could hear Cali choking in the next room.

"I thought that was obvious!" He said, grinning.

I smiled and shook my head. I helped Layla up and she was still laughing. I walked into Cali' s room and she was laughing and crying in a puddle of water. "It came out of my nose!!!" She screamed.

I shook my head, smiled, and walked back over to Joey. He was still laughing, then he pointed behind me.

I turned around and i saw Mason, of course. He smiled at ran towards me. I stayed where i was, and when he got near me, he grabbed me and pulled me into a tight hug. I couldn't help but hug back. I was so pissed at him, but i missed him so much.

I held onto him, and he picked me up in his arms. "Huh. That's new." I said.

He breathed in deeply and squeezed my hips a little too hard,and i could feel all my scars again. I winced in pain, "Mason. Hips. "

He put me down immediately and apologized, "Sorry Esme. I just missed you so much."

I smiled, but then i got angry at him. "Then why didn't you come visit me... its been 2 months..."

He looked down, "I know, I'm sorry. I just thought i should give you some time to adjust."

I nodded, but i could feel Joey,Layla, AND Cali watching us. "Come on, my friends want to meet you."

I took him over to them, and Layla's jaw dropped. I laughed, and i remembered how attractive he was. I had forgotten for a moment. "Mason, this is Layla, Joey, and Cali."

Cali seemed completely casual, "Hey. I'm Cali." She said, shaking his hand. She glared at him a little, but then smiled.

"Hi. I'm Mason. Sorry if this is rude, but why are you all here?" He asked.

Cali smirked, "because we're serial killers, of course."

We all laughed, "Nah I'm kidding. I'm clinically depressed and I have severe bulimia." She answered.

"I'm Joey, and may I just say, you are serious eye candy bro. I have severe OCD and bipolar. I'm apparently a danger to those around me." Joey said, shaking his hand for a little too long.

"Um hi I'm Layla, and I completely agree with Joey, you're hot as hell. Oh um I'm I  here because I'm a schizophrenic." Layla said, almost drooling.

Mason smiled, "Hey Cali, Joey, and Layla. I'm Mason."

"Guys. Wipe your chins,dear Jesus. C'mon, let's leave these two lovebirds alone." Cali said to Joey and Layla as she pulled them away. She winked at me as they walked away.

I turned bright red when she said lovebirds, but Mason just laughed.

"They seem nice." He said awkwardly. "So... do you know when you're getting out?" He asked

I shook my head, "I don't know. After what happened this morning, it might take a bit longer."

He sighed, "...I want you to come back..."

I was so mad at him. He's pitying himself, while I'm stick in a mental hospital. "Well, I'm fine with staying longer, I like it here. Me and my psychotic friends have a lot of fun taking gross medications, eating bad cafeteria food, and and playing bingo. " I said, very sarcastically.

He sighed again, "I really don't need your sarcasm Esme. You've put me through so much this last couple of weeks, and I'm so pissed at you. That's why I didn't visit. I'm too ashamed and embarrassed of you. You try to kill yourself, then you get mad at ME for saving you. I'm so tired of it. I'm sorry, but I'm done with this. I'm done with you. I'll miss you, but I think its for the best. Bye Esme."

He walked away, leaving me in the hallway. I was speechless. Cali ran over, "Sorry, I was eavesdropping. You okay hon?" She asked. I realized that moment how fucked up we all were. Cali weighed about 60 lbs, and she thought she was fat, even though she's like a stick. She had self made marks all over her body, scars that would never heal and they would haunt her every single day. Layla talked to herself and argued with herself all night every night. Joey obsesses over washing his hands, and he's so bipolar that normal people are afraid of him. We are so fucked up, but we pretend that we're perfectly normal. Its sad.

"No.." I whispered and fell to the floor. She knelt down with me, and held me close. Layla and Joey followed her lead, and they held my hands and patted my back. They understood what i had just post, even though i didn't tell them. I lost the one reason that i was alive.

They only understood because they had lost it too at one point.

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Well, it was almost a happy chapter. Almost. I hope you enjoyed it, because it took SO long to write! Thanks for reading! By the way, the picture above is Joey.
♡♡Christal