Layla's POV
"Life is too short to spend it at war with yourself."
I don't really know what depression feels like. I've never actually been depressed. Sometimes I'm really sad, but that's not the same thing. I don't know how depressed people feel, but from what I can see, it feels awful.
I had a good friend, Joanna, before I came to the asylum, and she was clinically diagnosed with depression. I'd known her since we were in preschool, so I got to see the whole process. People say that you can't see depression, but I disagree with that. She had been a happy, smiley person all her life until one day one of her family members did something they shouldn't have done to her. She came to school the next day, and she didn't smile at me. She looked at the floor until I came up to her. "Joanna, what's wrong?" I asked. She looked me in the eyes, and her eyes had lost all hint of happiness. She erupted in tears in my arms and told me what happened.
I did what I could. I called the police on her dad the moment I got home that day, but I was too late. Joanna was no longer breathing. She had killed herself because of her disgusting father.
She was 14.
When I look at Cali, i see Joanna. She has lost all the light in her eyes because of her mom. She almost died because of her mom. Joanna,unfortunately, didn't get the second chance that Cali got.
I can't sleep. We're getting out of the asylum in a few hours, but all I can think about is Joanna and Cali. Why do parents do this to their children? Joanna was raped by her dad, Cali was abused by her mom, I was verbally abused by both of my parents, and so many poor innocent children have gone through these things. I don't understand. Some people really shouldn't be parents.
I'm trying to forgive my parents, just in case I see them again someday. Just so I can be the better person. It's really hard for me though, because deep down, I don't want to forgive them. They don't deserve my forgiveness. They haven't even tried to be a part of my life, so why should I forgive them?
Family is supposed to be the only people you can count on... I can't count on anyone in my family.
I really need to sleep.. in 4 hours its goodbye asylum and hello outside world for a whole day!!!
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