(Holy shit, 75 chapters?!?!)
Layla's POV
(YASSSSSS)
When someone you love dies, you always hear the same thing. 'I'm sorry for your loss.' And 'They're in a better place.' And shit like that. I absolutely hate that. I don't want to keep on thinking about it. I just want it to go away.
Cali's dead. She's gone. She's not coming back. Why do people have to keep reminding me? I don't WANT to remember. I want to think that she's in the room right next to me, singing every sad song in the world (I swear, she knew all of them.) or she's on the roof, pretending that she actually knows all the constellations. Or maybe she's screaming at a nurse for being sexist. I don't care what she's doing, just as long as I don't have to think that I'll never see her again.
But the sad reality is: She's dead. Nothing I can do will change that. She's dead.
I hid under my blankets for hours until I decided to do something. I grabbed my letter and opened it slowly. It's like I was hoping there would be one of those talking cards and it would say "Cali's fine! Sorry about the prank!" But it didn't.
It said:
Layla,
God I'm gonna miss you. I'm gonna miss your eyes that can stare through everyone's souls. I'm gonna miss how you blink twice every time you lie. I'm gonna miss your loud voice and your attitude that's larger than life. I'm gonna miss everything about you.
I know you hate me right now. I know you'll never understand why. I know you'll probably come up with some other form of dealing with losing me, probably drugs like usual. I know you're gonna be mad at me until you die. And I'm sorry. But you, of all people, understand that people die all the time and it's nothing to make a big deal about. Please don't make a big deal about my death. It should've happened a long time ago.
Now you're really gonna be pissed at me.
Stop with the drugs. You're so much better than that. I remember when I had a drug problem, yes I had one, I'm sorry I didn't tell you. And it hurt me so much. It's not worth it. Sure, it's okay at first. But on the long run? It's not worth it. Please stop.
Thank you for trying to help me. Thank you for being there. Thank you for just being you. I love you so much, and I hope you have a wonderful life. I know you've had some problems in your life, but you can overcome them. I believe in you. You can even overcome the schizophrenia, I know you don't believe it, but you can. Please get better and live your life. Go back to school. Become the most amazing photographer. Marry some hottie and have 4 kids. Just have a great life. You deserve it. I love you. I'll miss you Layla.
Please don't forget about me.
Calliope Arianna Haile
P.S. You're so much stronger than you think you are. Stop doubting yourself, you're so strong. You're stronger than I ever was, you just don't know it yet. Someday you will. I look forward to that day.
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This chapter took me longer than I expected, sorry about that. I hope you guys are okay with this chapter. Thank you for reading!
❤❤Christal
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