Finding Me (Sequel to Ava,The World, and Niall Horan)

31: The After Party, Minus the Party

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“And now the nominee’s for the best single,” announced Alicia. I was slowly mentally punching her face.

The screen went through all the nominee's me being one of them. I had won 4 Brits so far but something feels a bit off about it all. I usually would only win 1 or two every year but this it was four. I feel as if it was a pity Brit or something.

Thankfully though, Mowgli's Road lost to Ed Sheeran's Saturday. Thank God.

He gave his speech, it was his first Brit for the night, and I watched as Alicia was eying the crowed. I followed her eyes and found them resting dreamily on Niall. I go on tour with this bitch in four days, and she wants to fuck my boyfriend. This is going to be a fantastic ice breaker for the bus rides.  

I clapped with a smile as Ed finished his speech with thank yous. Only one more award and then the boys close up the show. Then I get to get drunk on wine and forget this fucking night ever happened.

Do you know how annoying Alicia is? She screeches any time a celeb she likes goes on stage or something and sang along to every single fucking song performed. I know all the songs now!

I really just want to decapitate her.

I took a long chug of my wine wishing to get drunk faster. I'm actually really okay with pulling a Mariah Carey.

Alicia left the stage and soon enough she was walking back into the rows of seats.

She made a quick stop to talk to some people since we went to a commercial break.

She went to give her congratulations to a couple of winners when I saw her make her way to the boys. I quickly got up for some odd reason to watch them better. I noticed just how weird I must look and decided to get back down.

What if she's flirting with Niall.... More importantly what if Niall flirts back.

I got up when I saw Alicia finally leave the boys. she had that school girl grin that girls get when she talk to the guy we like. The only problem was that she isn't allowed to like the guy she likes because that guy is my guy and my guy is mine not hers.

I sound like a raging  control-freak girlfriend.

What is wrong with me?

I made my ways to the boys and pretend to look for Alicia.

"Have you guys seen her?" I asked casually while pretending to skim the room.

I saw as Liam casually turned to Niall. The boys stayed quiet when Niall finally sighed.

"Last time I saw her she was on stage with Ed," said Niall with a shrug.

"Uhu," I said slightly annoyed. Why would he lie to me?   I saw her here like less than 2 minutes ago.

I looked at the boys faces and then tried to pretend as if they were casually looking around; never making eye contact with me whatsoever.

I looked towards Eleanor who seemed to confused as to what they were all lying to me. She never said anything but she eyed the boys curiously.

"Well if you see her, tell me," I told them, "Last time she got lost backstage. It took me forever to find her again."

This time, I didn't lie. That did actually happen, that just wasn't my motive. She could get lost in the desert for all I care.

"She might be with Perrie and the girls," said Zayn while eying the other boys. He wasn't lying, "I know they're somewhat friends. Probably went there to say hi or something."