Finding Me (Sequel to Ava,The World, and Niall Horan)

34: I Play my Part In 'I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant'

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“I’m beat,” I sighed as I collapsed on Nialls couch.

I tiredly ripped off my metal bracelets and my heals.

They seemed like a good idea at the time.

Then again so did switching Zayn’s Contact-Solution with alcohol, but that didn’t really work out either....

He didn’t talk to me for like a week.

I had to fly Perrie in personally while he was on tour.

"I'm sorry I made you go through that with me; I didn't know it was going to be as personal as family issues. We don't talk about that stuff figured this would be no exception obviously I was wrong though....." I explained to Niall.

" its fine," Niall stated with a shrug. He fell down next to me and gave me a small kiss.

" I never really saw that part of you usually Ava who is just always so nice to people right off the bat," He went on, "And if you just don't like someone right off the bat when you eventually just learned how to not hate them or you forgive them are you just simply apologize to people and learn that everything's possible sometimes.... your mom though. You hold a really long grudge against her I didn't think you could have been able to apologize to her or just understand in general...."

"because she's my mom. She was supposed to be there and she could have been; She just chose not to. She chose to not be there and I've never would think wrong of her to do that if it just wasn't possible because if it was that we actually needed the money like that I could forgive her. forgive her every time, but she chose to not be my mom.... Its just not fair."

"I know its not," sighed Niall. he kissed the top of my head and smiled, "Point Being: I'm proud of you. You were being civilized all through Dinner."

"I was?" I asked surprised.

"Well, if we ignore the beginning," he said with a light chuckle.

I smiled up and him and we made faces back and forth until I sighed.

"I should go," I told him, "I have an interview tomorrow with Alicia in the morning."

"Just sleepover," he sighed.

"Not today," I laughed while kissing him, "They're going to pick me up at my flat in the morning. I'm always late if I go straight to the studio on my own so Alicia's mum agreed to pick me up. I'd never hear the end of it from that woman if I change addresses."

"Alright then," he said while standing. he extended his arm out to me and I took gratefully. "I should get you home then. It's already midnight."

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"So how is the tour planning going?" asked the interviewer.

"Fantastic," said Alicia with a smile, "we're nearly done with everything. All we need now is to get on the road."

they all gave a fake chuckle and moved on rather quickly.

"So Alicia," asked Kelly, the interviewer, "How does it feel to be going on tour with one of the biggest names Worldwide?"

"An absolute dream," Alicia smiled at me. I couldn't help but smile at them.

I've now come to the realization that the only reason I didn't like Alicia was because she resembled everything I was when I was her age.

She was just like me.

which makes sense, considering I hated myself.

"-Ava is a really sweet person and like my mentor through all this," Alicia said with her thick northern Accent.