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We were both sitting in the hotel room doing nothing. We came back like an hour ago and we just sat down.
I on a chair beside the bed with my legs hiding under the frill of my bed, and Niall on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands out of exhaustion.
Where do I start with this.
Things got dark sooo quickly. All the hours and the days are shamed. It's all just making me annoyed with it all!
"It's not that I don't want to be with you, Niall," I told him finally, after an hour in silence. "It's not easy to explain."
"Then how do you explain it?" Niall asked with a slight scoff, "Cause obviously it was easy for you to figure out in the last two weeks I went back to London."
"None of this feels right anymore," I said a little tired myself.
"What," Asked Niall with a hint of anger in his voice mixed with sarcasm and sneer. "So, things get complicated for you, you run off and cover your little affair because you 'didn't wanna lose me' and then tell me that we're a ticking time-bomb...?"
"I never said that!" I yelled annoyed with him comment, "And I didn't fucking cheat you little shit! We weren't together, you had Amy and all I had was myself; So shut the fuck up about your feelings getting spared, 'because there shouldn't have been any fucking feeling to spare to even begin with!"
"Then why the fuck cover it up so fucking much?!" He yelled back.
"Don't you fucking yell at me!" I shouted.
"Then why are you yelling at me?!"
" 'Cause I felt like it you dickhead!"
"Why would you cover it up?!"
"Cause I knew you would get jealous just because it was Harry and not some random guy!"
"You know," sighed Niall, "Its not even about the kiss. Why didnt you just tell me?"
"I was scared, okay?" I said, "I’m allowed to be scared once in a while, and frankly I knew what you'd think!"
"And whats that?" He asked sarcastically.
"That I like Harry," I said, "You've always been jealous of anyone near me when its the boys. Especially Harry."
"They're my mates-"
"And Harry's my best friend! I was drunk outta my head and so was he! Knowing you you would get jealous because everyone always ships us or whatever!"
No matter what. Its always been about Harry. We get shipped like crazy since we're such good friends and not to mention that the constant reminder stings.
If its the trio, I'm always with Niall. If its all of us, anyone. Just not Harry.
I didnt even know how it came to evolve that way but it just has.
"You said that-"
"Niall, I never said anything. I knew that us being shipped was enough for you to doubt us once in a while... this would completely fuck everything up."
"...Im going to kill him." He said annoyed.
"Wait what?!" I exclaimed, "Why would you-"
"You wouldn't get it!" He said even more annoyed. Niall got his coat back on and headed out. I would go out to get him but this... this is all too fast.
I can’t lose my relationship and my best friendship at once. I don’t even know I can ever deal with losing this...
So it ends like this; with a girl.
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Finding Me (Sequel to Ava,The World, and Niall Horan)
FanfictionYour past doesn't define you, but your choices do. After leaving for nearly six months, Ava has come back London, and picked up her life right were it had left off. At least she thought she did. Your supposed to let go of baggage in six months right...
