Something Infinite

Chapter 30

I dedicate the first half of this chapter to my friend Maxine, because I had you in mind when writing this, please take something away from this when people don't appreciate you.

Jen's POV

Friendship was a beautiful thing to me. You're put on this Earth not knowing anyone besides your family, until you go out there and find another stranger, and instantly form a bond strong enough to want to nurture the relationship.

Some friendships last longer than others, and some end before they even truly begin, but I believed if someone was meant to be in your life, they would do and say whatever it took to stay.

Wasn't it weird to think we lived in a world filled with millions of strangers walking around, and we not know that one of them could be our future best friend, our future lover, or future acquaintance of some form. I believed we should never close ourselves off to new relationships, and that is why I decided to give my friendship with Dani a go.

Over the last couple of weeks, we had become closer since the boys were busy with their press and promotion, and neither her or I had much else to do while they worked. Of course Eleanor was a constant presence in my mind, but I just hoped she understood that just because I befriended someone she didn't particularly like, didn't mean I was being disloyal to our friendship.

I hadn't heard from her in a couple of weeks, which wasn't exactly unusual for us. El and I had that type of friendship where we didn't need to talk everyday, but the minute we caught up it was like we had never stopped talking. I loved that about us, it showed the close bond we had, and I hoped nothing that happened would ever break that.

Maybe at the back of my mind I was just paranoid, and feeling a little guilty for spending my time with Dani, so I just planted my own thoughts in my head that El was upset with me. She would have confronted me if something was bothering her, surely.

Harry and I had organised our plans for Christmas in a few weeks, booking flights for my family to head over to the UK for the holidays. Anne had invited my parents, Sam, and even my grandmother to celebrate Mia's first Christmas together in her home. Since I was going to be in the UK, I thought this may have been a good reason to get in contact with El again, to see when we could see eachother while I was in the country.

Mia was downstairs being forced into watching a football game with Harry, Gemma, and Angus, while I was upstairs cleaning this ridiculous mess Harry insisted on living in. Being a mum was a full time job, so even getting these moments to myself where I could organise everything were very rare.

Besides the constant screaming I heard echoing through the apartment, this was the first peace and quiet I actually got to myself, allowing me to catch up on things- like calling El.

While I waited for her to answer the call, I suddenly felt a nervous twist form in the pit of my stomach. You know that feeling you get when you feel like something bad is going to happen, or the feeling you get when you're fighting with someone you care for, and nothing feels like it could make you okay again? That's the feeling I was enduring for some reason, and I hoped my own emotions weren't foreshadowing what was going to take place in this phone call.

"Hello," she finally answered, before I gave up on the never ending rings standing between her and I talking.

"Hey El, it's Jen," I said stupidly, "obviously it's me, I'm sure my name came up on your screen."

"Yeah..." she responded, filling the call with an awkward silence and uncomfortable feeling something was wrong. Usually she was more upbeat, and would even laugh at my stupid comment, but now I got nothing but a cold "yeah" in response.