Something Infinite

Chapter 68

Jen's POV

Week one without Harry wasn't as empty and depressing, as I initially expected it to be. Of course his presence was missed, though. I often found myself calling out to him, only to quickly remember the silence in return wasn't him ignoring me, rather he wasn't actually around to answer back. There were days I did miss being able to turn around and see him there, but other days I felt more accepting of the situation, and like I wasn't as alone as I thought I would be.

It did help that Niall was around constantly. When I say constantly, I meant every day since Harry and Willow had left. I think he felt a little lonely, being in that apartment all day by himself. He wasn't really working much on anything music wise, he was just enjoying the time off from the industry while he could. I think he felt responsible for Mia and I, when Harry wasn't here. So he came over daily, to spend a little time with us, while we mainly spoke about our significant others.

Week two reality was starting to set in a little more harshly. We were barely into the time apart, and every phone call seemed to become shorter, as filming started to intensify, and take up more of Harry's time. It didn't help that our time zones were completely out of sync, and the small window we did have, he was usually on set.

I was so proud of everything he was doing over there. I knew he was enjoying himself, and from what Willow had told me, the crew really seemed to love him, and sing nothing but praises over him. Harry was an extremely loveable person, it was hard for me to ever believe that anyone would dislike him, or be cruel to him. It was in his nature to excel at everything, especially being a decent human being.

Towards the end of the first month, that's when things really started to hit me. He wasn't coming home any time soon, and I was about to start back at MTV. I was officially living as a single parent, even though it was only for another two months. Niall was still around a lot, but I couldn't expect him to be with me all day, everyday.

Sam was in and out of the house, spending time with whoever she was dating, that she still wouldn't open up about. I had my suspicions it was Calum, but I would let her tell me when she was ready to. I hope the two of them were making it work again, even though they seemed to be so up and down, to the point I didn't know if it was healthy for either of them. I couldn't judge though, because my relationship wasn't exactly stable before Mia came along.

Although I was missing Harry like a whole in the heart, Angus had called me days ago and told me he and Gemma were moving back to Melbourne. Apparently his show wasn't succeeding as well as everyone thought it would, so they pulled the plug, and neither of them saw reason to stay in LA, when they had no reason to.

I knew with work and them coming home, it would give me a good distraction from missing Harry as much as I did. Not that anything would really replace him in my mind, but at least if I kept busy, and stayed surrounded by people I loved, it may have softened the blow I felt, every time I spoke to my fiancé, and knew I had to hang up and not speak with him again until the next day.

Today was the first day of week five, which also happened to be the day Gemma and Angus arrived home. I'd spent a fair amount of time with Bella since I'd been home, helping her with her rehabilitation and recovery. Some days were better than others, but every day was a step closer to her being her best self again.

Whenever I saw her, it really put into perspective just how silly it was for me to be upset over my partner being overseas for a little bit, when people like her had bigger issues to face everyday, and real struggles to a battle through. I actually felt a little self centred whenever I showed my emotions around her, because I knew my problems were nothing in comparison to her.