Something Infinite

Chapter 19

Harry's POV

"Have you told Jen yet about the break up and extended tour?" Niall hounded me for the fifth day in a row now. I'd been avoiding it and trying to put it off, because I didn't want to set her back.

She'd told me about her counselling session, and how much it had already helped her in her process of healing from her emotional wounds. I wished I could have been there for her, especially now since Angus and my sister were in LA.

"I'll tell her in a few days, I'm just waiting for everything to settle down. She was already a little fragile with Angus leaving on Friday, I don't want to add to it and potentially set her back after the progress she's made."

I knew this was history repeating itself, by me keeping something from her to spare her feelings, but I didn't have the heart to do it. She would just blame herself for me wanting to take a break from the band, and that's not what I wanted.

"You're playing a dangerous game, when are you ever going to learn?" He shook his head at my decision to stay quiet for a little longer.

"I'm doing what's best for my girlfriend, her emotional state is more important to me than telling her what's happening with the band. She's just getting adjusted to being in an empty house with the baby, I don't need to add more stress to her."

"Where's her sister?"

"She's there, but she also has university and work, she can't be with Jen all day everyday."

Niall always seemed to care about my relationship with Jen, and especially cared about me being honest with her. I loved and loathed him for it. He was the voice of reason, and he was usually always right, but I just wished he'd cut me a break occasionally, and not make me feel guilty for making the choices I did.

"Do you want me to tell her?" He suggested.

"No! Do you want her to crack the shits and not talk to me? I can't fix things from over here Niall, it's better it comes from me. I'll call her today and do it, Jesus!" I grew annoyed with him for ambushing me into this.

I knew the longer I put it off the more upset she was probably going to get, especially since it was another secret I had kept from her to avoid upsetting her.

"You know I don't pressure you to do these things to hurt you Harry, I do it for your own good. All I ever do is have your back and protect you...you're welcome," he stood and left my room in a huff.

What he said was true, and I shouldn't have been agitated at him for being the older brother I never had, I guess he just made me realise I was the one that kept messing things up, and I was angry with myself.

I had to give it to him- today at one of the tv interviews we did, he did have my back. The interviewer was becoming a little intrusive about my personal life, and Niall stepped in and diverted the attention away from the question.

Jen and I still hadn't announced Mia's birth, because it was no ones business. I was surprised we'd kept it under wraps for this long, and no one had been suspecting anything. I would announce it soon, when I felt it was right.

This time difference and distance wasn't ideal, especially when I didn't want to risk waking her up, or catching her at a bad time. It was around ten in the morning over there now, so I just decided to take my chances and try and video chat with her.

It took a few seconds before there was an answer, and with every ring my stomach twisted a little more in anticipation for what was going to happen. The second she answer though, with her cheek to cheek smile, and genuine happiness to see me, my anxiety halted momentarily. I wanted to keep that smile on her face forever.