Total Eclipse of the Heart (KathNiel)

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I've been hurt so bad and I still love so hard. I admire my heart for that.

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Bumuntong hininga ako bago magtype ng isang panibagong entry sa blog ko. Sobrang saya ng mga past entries ko at ngayon napagdesisyunan kong maglagay ng isang prose.

Exams week na pero ito ang pinagkakaabalahan ko. Ang tagal kasi magreply ni Jace, lumingon ako para tignan ang cellphone ko ngunit wala parin kaya bumaling ako sa laptop ko at ngumuso bago magtype.

"A QUICKSAND

When I looked up and saw Cupid with a bow, I knew we were in trouble. I immediately turned my head and gazed to him, he smiled at me, but I was nervous. Is Cupid going to hit the both of us? I blink. And if so... What should I do? I thought of running away just to escape Cupid, just to escape this, because at this very moment, I don't want to fall in love. I don't think I am ready. My heart is beating fast and my palms are sweaty. I stepped forward and decided to move away from him. I tried. I tried my very best, but his hands reached mine, begging me to stay and stopping me from running away. I tried... but I guess it's too late.

Butterflies filled my stomach and I can't breathe after the moment Cupid releases his arrow to hit our hearts. Everything around us is a blur. All I can see is him, beside me, staring, using his eyes to make me feel that I am the most beautiful girl he has seen in his whole life. I am trapped. It's too late to escape. I am already in love with this boy beside me. He move closer, lean and kissed me. His warm lips brush against mine, and when I looked up to see Cupid, he's waving and saying goodbye.

Mommy was right. Love is like a quicksand. Once you fall in it, it's hard to fucking get out."

Ilang minuto lang pagkatapos kong ipost ang prose na 'yon ay ang dami agad comments sa mga bumibisita sa blog ko.

"Hugot po ba? Hahaha"

"Idol ko talaga 'to! Ang galing!"

"Grabe, nakakainlove!"

"Nakakabitter ate hahaha"

"Walang forever :("

"In love ka ata ate!!"

"Share ng lovelife hahaha"

"Pangalan na kaya ni KOYA ilagay mo!"

Napailing ako at bumuntong hininga. Napawi ang lungkot ko nang tumunog ang cellphone ko. Sa wakas! Jace!

JACE: Nagbasketball ako sorry hehe

SUMMER: It's okay.

Nakanguso ako bago isend iyon.

JACE: Seen your latest post on your blog. Ako ba iyon?

Nanliit ang mata ko. Ang kapal talaga! But yeah, siya iyong tinutukoy ko. Sino pa ba? Yes! I am falling for Jace. Completely falling. Crazily falling. Hindi ko alam how but it just happened. Sa tuwing nakikita ko siya ay kumakalabog ang puso ko at tumatalon sa tuwa. Hindi ako makahinga sa tuwing tinitignan niya ang mga mata ko, namumula ang pisngi ko at napapaos ang boses ko sa tuwing malapit siya sa akin. His presence makes me crazy.

Hindi ko man maamin noong una pero oo, nahuhulog na ako. But I won't tell this to him. Dahil siguro ay hindi pa ako handang sagutin siya. Hindi naman siya nagmamadali at pinapakita naman niya sa akin, na kaya niyang mag-intay.