The Persistent Alpha, & Resistant Luna

31. I Think That . I Know That .

Nova's POV

It was an odd feeling, the one I could feel even in my unconsciousness. I felt an overbearing impact. From what, I wasn't sure. But I could feel the effects it was having on me.

Whatever it was.

The only thing I could do was call out to Grey. I couldn't tell if it was me really saying it or not, but God did I need him now more than ever.

Apart from the pain in my head, I could feel my body begin to ache. Overtime, it began to throb in pain, until it full-on fucking hurt.

Inside, I felt like my bones were breaking. Each one cracking until it split and each new piece doing the same.

Every tendon and muscle in my body felt like they'd been torn and were burning as if acid had been poured in my veins.

My scalp and skin prickled like I was being stabbed with thousands of little needles. I felt like my body was being reconstructed, but at the same time..

..I felt like I was dying.

I felt like I'd been calling out to Grey for hours, but in all honesty, I wasn't sure how long it'd been. I wasn't sure how long I'd been enduring this excruciating pain.

I just wanted it to end. I wanted Grey to make it go away. My body felt like he was the only one who could.

Just when I began feeling like I couldn't handle it anymore, the pain slowly began to cease.

I thought I was only imagining it because that's what I wanted with everything in me, but when the prickling feeling died as well as the bone-breaking feeling I had, I knew the pain was actually beginning to go away.

Grey.

That was all I could think of. Even in my mind I could hear myself panting. The pain had drained me, and now all I was left with was that dull ache, exhaustion, and the overwhelming feeling to want to be in Grey's arms.

Something told me he'd be able to fix me. To put my broken parts back together again..

I woke up in a room I wasn't familiar with and immediately began to panic. The last unfamiliar place I was in was because of Titus. And I was with him.

Titus!

I sat up, ready to spring off the bed and dash for the door. But as soon as I sat upright, the aching in my body returned. I felt sore literally from head to toe.

"Woah there, baby."

A warm, tingling sensation swept over me and when I turned to face those pale brown eyes and that dark black head of hair, I couldn't help but to nearly tackle him to the ground.

Ignoring the ache, I smashed my lips to Grey's like my life depended on it. And I was all the more happy when he didn't pull away, instead, deepening the kiss.

When we did pull away, we ended up standing body to body with his arms embracing me. I laid my head against his chest, comforted by the sound of his heart.

His irregular beating heart.

"It's different.. the way your heart beats." My voice was only a whisper, strained from all the screaming I'd done today.

"It's in sync with yours." His hand slid up the back of my neck, holding me against him even closer.

"I'm one of you now, fully.. Aren't I? That's what this feeling inside me is."

He didn't reply with words, but I felt the nod of his head. For some reason, the answer made me cry.

"I'm sorry, pet. It wasn't suppose to happen this way."

"W-what do you mean?"

Grey swept me up, placing me back on the bed and then taking a seat next to me. "Nova, you were already going through the change. It was most likely triggered by your mother's death, but stunted when you shut off everything you were feeling."

"So you mean, I was the reason I hadn't changed yet?"

The apologetic look he gave me let me know that it was true. I hadn't changed because I wasn't in touch with myself, I wasn't in touch with who I was suppose to be.

With who I am.

"Did the situation with Titus awaken it in me? My.. wolf?"

"Yes. Unfortunately it did."

"Unfortunately? Is it.. Is it a bad thing?" I sniffled.

"Not exactly, but I don't think you were ready for it. Not yet at least."

"What's there to be ready for?" He had me worried now, but I didn't want to say that.

He inhaled deeply, almost seeming too nervous to tell me.

"Nova, now that your wolf is no longer dormant, there are things you must do. Things that really aren't a choice."

"I don't have to make a sacrifice for some goddess of the moon, do I?"

"Never joke about the Moon Goddess, she'll make you regret it."

You're damn skippy that made me look at him like he'd lost his rabid ass mind. Though I'd already thought that he did from day one, this just confirmed it all over again.

"So there is such thing as a Goddess of the Moon?"

"Who do you think pairs mates together? Who do you think lets our bodies know when it is time for our change? We have a higher being than just God to answer to. Us wolves."

"So you guys still believe in God?"

"Whole-heartedly, well.. the pack does."

Odd for him to add.

"And you? What do you believe in?"

He was quiet for a moment. "..Myself."

"That's not all you have Grey, you have a whole pack that stands behind you. A whole pack to believe in, you believe in at least that. Right? I mean.."

"And you.."

I shut my rambling up instantly.

Me?

"I believe in you Nova, I believe in us. I feel it.. Can you? Can you feel me in your veins the way I can with you? I thought I could feel you already before, but this.. this is like a new high. A new rush. A new meaning. I can feel you in my soul.. It.. It's almost frightening."

The way he spoke was so gentle, so soft as if his words could break me. His lips held a small smile, though his eyes seemed off in another world.

He was mesmerizing to watch.

"I think that I love you, exotic eyes."

This time he looked at me like I was the crazy one.

Maybe I was..

He cupped my face in his hands and kissed me so passionately, it made me want to cry even more.

"I know that I love you, my sweet supernova."

And instantly, just like that, the ache I'd been feeling vanished. And I was left with the unbearable feeling to love and be loved by Grey.