Colleen POV
We walk into Erins's room and I can feel Josh tense up as he clings to me. I rub his arm as he sits beside her holding her hand. I stand behind him looking at Erin over his shoulder. She is still comatose and has tubes helping her breathe. She is really pale and so much tinier than when I last saw her 6 months ago. Her face is sunken in and her hair is so dry and brittle looking. Josh is kissing her hand as he whispers into her ear how much he loves her and needs her. It brings tears to my eyes listening. I see Lisa and Greg on the other side of her watching their kids together and both are equally overwhelmed with emotion. I hear Josh cry even more so I walk to move beside him as I kneel down to him rubbing his back. "Joshua, just keep talking to her. The nurses said her vitals are getting stronger baby" I say trying to get him to calm down. He stands up and starts pacing around the foot of her bed as his face turns from sorrow to anger. "I fucking hate him!" Josh says. "Joshua, stop the language" Lisa says looking at me. Everyone is in shock seeing Joshua this angry. I haven't ever seen him like this before. "Mom, he almost killed your daughter" Josh yells. "He almost killed Erin" Josh sobs looking at his parents. Lisa nods and grabs her face into her hands as she cries. "I am sorry Momma. I just love her. I love my baby sister" Josh says kneeling down to her. She nods and hugs him as he kneels in front of her. I can't handle seeing him so broken and can only imagine the pain I put him through when I was sick. I walk out into the hallway quietly to breathe. I sit down in the chairs down the hall and jump on my phone to update everyone on how she is. I hear Josh walking towards me. I smile and stand up to face him. "I was just letting everyone know how she is babe" I say grabbing him. He nods. "You ok Josh?" I ask. "I am better now. I shouldn't have had that outburst, especially in front of my parents" he says lowering his head. I put my finger under his chin and lift his face to me. "Josh, you love your sister. You have every right to be angry. I love you" I say hugging him. He hugs me tight. "If we have a daughter one day she is never dating until 35" he says smiling. "Agreed" I say looking into his eyes. "This world is so hard sometimes but amazingly wonderful other times. One day at a time ok?" I say. He leans in to kiss me. "Just need to get Erin back to normal. That is our goal right now" I say. He stands up a little taller and takes a deep breath. "I am married to the most beautiful, talented,smartest woman ever. Thank you for helping me and my sister. You are going to make a wonderful mother one day babe" he says as he leans against my forehead. His words warm my heart. I want it now more than ever.
