Josh POV
Two weeks after the funeral I get a call from Colleens oncologist. "Josh, hows Colleen?" She asks. "Devastated" I reply holding back tears. "Well I know the timing is terrible but we need to start treatment. Can you talk to her and let me know?" She asks. "Yes I want her to start too" I say crying now. "Joshua, I will do my very best to keep her safe and unaffected as much as possible during her treatment" she says. She knows I am terrified of loosing her now that Lily is gone. "I know. Thank you. I will talk to her and get back to you" I say as I hang up. I walk up to the bedrooms and find Colleen in a sleeping bag in the middle of Lily's room with Rachel. I see Rachel hugging her consoling her. Rachel hears me step into the room and looks up. "Hey ladies" I say quietly. I see Colleen look up from Rachels shoulder. She doesn't look like my Colleen anymore. I sit down beside them and stare in to Colleens eyes as I rub her leg through the sleeping bag. "Baby. Dr Peters called and she wants you to start treatment asap" I say watching her face. She says nothing but stares at me. I pull a section of hair off of her face and put it behind her ear. I know she heard me. Rachel is looking at her too. "Sis, we need to get you better ok?" Rachel suggests. She shakes her head no. "Why Colleen?" Rachel asks as I start crying panicking. I feel Rachel grab my hand to quiet me. "I want to be with Lily" Colleen says staring at her hands. "Colleen you are killing me please baby" I beg sobbing now. "I need you, everyone does. We can have future children . We will always remember Lily" I say hugging her. She doesn't hug back and doesn't show any emotion. I pull away. "Baby pleaseeeeee" I say laying on her lap. She places her hand on my head and breaks down. I look up at her and hug her again as she sobs. She is almost screaming she is crying so much. I pull her onto my lap and rock her as Rachel watches us with her hand over her mouth keeping in her emotions while tears fall down her face. "Joshua I feel dead already" she says. "Just sadness baby. We will help you, day by day ok?" I say. She nods nuzzling. I look at Rachel and slightly smile. This is a start.
