Josh POV
I am helping Colleen into a gown in our private hospital room. There is a fleury of activity around us as nurses get IV's ready and her doctor waits to exam her. Finally I tie up her last tie on her gown and she hugs me. "Scared" she whispers. "I am right here.... Always" I say holding her face. I feel her shoulders drop as she calms down a bit. Her Mom is sitting on the other side of her as she lays down. The doctor exams her and orders her medication to get things moving. I sit beside her stroking her face as her eyes remain closed. I feel her tense up a bit as her knees shoot up. "Starting?" I ask as she nods. I kiss her forehead and stare at her as her eyes open to look at me. "Joshua" she whispers. "I need ice" she says panting a little bit as I rub her belly. I nod and grab some from the hall as one of the nurses passes me a small cup and spoon. I walk back in and see her Mom and her crying hugging. Gwen smiles and releases her as I return. "My baby girl is having a baby" she says to me rubbing Colleens shoulder. "Can't wait" I say smiling. I start feeding Colleen a couple pieces of chipped ice until she stops chewing. "Oh my god" she says gripping both of us. "Colleen it will pass" Gwen says staring at the machine. "We will count you down" Gwen says confidently. I see Colleen listen to her Mom and nod. I kiss her lips as she goes into agony again. "Baby" I say sympathetically staring at her. "Need your hands babe" she says. I nod and slip my hands across her bare belly rubbing her as she watches me. I run it up and down from under her breasts to her pubic bone until I feel her stomach harden and she grasps again. "I feel it babe. Come on breathe through it" I say as she pants more. I watch her start to cry holding me. "Babe it will be over soon ok?" I say as she pulls herself to a sitting position.
Hours pass and she is a mess. She isn't progressing at all. "Colleen lets do a c section?" Her doctor asks her as she clings to me. I look at Colleen and she is terrified. "Josh can be with you the whole time" he says to her trying to calm her down. She nods. "Colleen while I have you opened up I am going to remove your cervix ok?" He asks. "No I want chemo" she says. I stop breathing. "Colleen what?" I ask. "Lets get this disease out of you" I beg. "No I want to start with chemo first. I want to try and keep it so we can have more babies some day" she says. I start to cry. The doctor rubs my back. "We can definitely try that route Colleen. Whatever you want" the doctor says. I need her healthy.
