Josh POV
"Yup I will be out there soon" Colleen says sitting in the backyard on the phone. She says goodbye and hangs up and gets up from her chair. Her little ponytail is so cute as it grew back the last 6 months however she has lost more weight and I fear she is falling into a light depression causing a mild version of anorexia. She has been burying herself in her work again trying to keep busy on the fact that she isn't pregnant yet. "Baby who were you talking to? " I asked. "I was just talking to my manager babe. It looks like I might have a second season or version of the old Miranda show coming back onto Netflix" she says half looking at me. "That's great babe but where is it in Los Angeles?" I asked. She looks at me sadly. I know the answer. It's something I don't want to hear. She shakes her head no and watches my reaction as she blurts out "Canada!" "Colleen it's so far away. I want you here with me. I know we've done this before but I didn't like it and I don't want you to go this time" I say holding her with tears in my eyes. "Josh I have to go" she says as she walks past me. I start to follow her into the house quietly crying. "I know you're a grown woman but I worry about you. You aren't taking care of yourself even when I'm around" I say. "I got it"she says. I sit on the edge of the bed as I see her walk into our bathroom. "Is it because we're not pregnant yet babe that you need to get out of this house or is it me?" I ask fearfully, not sure if I want to know the answer. She turns around with tears in her eyes and just closes the bathroom door. I know I hit a nerve. I said it out loud for the first time in months. I walk up to the bathroom door my hands against it and I can quietly hear her crying. I try the door handle and it isn't locked. I open it slowly and see her staring ar herself in the mirror. "I am not happy" she says looking at me. I nod. "With me?" I ask. She shakes her head no. I grab her and hug her. "The rest of it will work out. You need to take care of you first" I say as I feel her tiny frame in my hands. She nods. "I want to be a Mom" she says. "I want that too but don't let it consume you. Without or with kids we are made to be together" I say kissing her forehead. I know deep down she is breaking. She has been through so much over the last year. I just want to give this wish to her.

