Josh POV
I wait while Colleen is in surgery as I stare down at Juliana. Everyone is here. I see the surgeon come out and tells me she made it through the surgery now its a waiting game. I walk up to her room in ICU and she has a drainage tube coming from her head into a bag. She is all wired up so its hard to find a spot to touch her. I grab her fingertips and kiss them as I cry. "We need you baby please" I whisper staring at her sleeping. I see her family come in but I don't talk. I am in no mood to talk. "Joshua?" Rachel whispers. I turn to look at her as I wipe my face. "Juliana gets discharged tomorrow. Mom and I will take her to my house to look after while you are here with her. We want you here with her" she says as she cries. I nod and squeeze her hands and stare back at Colleen. " I am not leaving you baby. Ever" I say as I lay her fingers under my chin. This is going to be so hard.
A few days have past and she has woke up but still doesn't know me. She trusts me though so that is good. Doctors tell me she has major swelling pressing in her brain and once it has diminished she should remember me. I am hopeful.
Today she has the physical therapist helping her move her arms and legs to keep good blood flow. I sit on a chair and watch as she works along. She looks over at me and smiles and I literally melt. I love her so much.
I walk over to her after she is done and hold her hand and tell her how well she did until she looks like she is going to start to cry. "Baby whats wrong?" I ask in a panic. She grabs my other hand and smiles through her tears. "Joshua" she says. "I wore that hat before. When I had cancer didn't I?" She whispers pointing at my hat on my head. "Yes babe. When you lost all of your hair during your treatments. You said it made you feel loved" I say crying. She pulls me down to her and places it lightly on her bandages on her head. "I do feel loved" she says as she briefly kisses me. I start sobbing staring at her. "Colleen I love you more than anything" I say. I am enjoying every second. It was my fear she would never remember me.
The next day I walk in with roses for her and see my baseball hat on the table beside her bed. The nurse looks back at me and ushers me to a quiet part of the room as she sleeps. "She is really lost today. Remember her brain is settling down. There will be up days and down days" she says sadly. I nod and walk up to the bed and lay my hat on her head again and she wakes up. "Hey" I say quietly. "Hi" she says. She feels the hat on her head and pulls it off and looks at it confused. "What is this?" She asks. We are back at square one.
A/n .... Thoughts?
