He Loves Me Not *Under Editing*

Oh shit

I look at Chyna for her approval.  Let's just say that if looks could kill, he'd be dead.  I didn't want him to hurt her more than he already had, but I also didn't want her to hate my other best friend forever.  They were perfect together and it wasn't fair for it to end like this.  "Fine, you have five minutes."

"Chyna, you know me, I'm a fighter.  I will not give up.  I may stumble and fall, but I will get right back up.  It might take longer at times, but I WILL stand up and keep fighting."

"Where are you going with this asshole?"

"I fucked up."

"You think?"

"I do.  I shouldn't have left you.  I shouldn't have deserted you.  I fucked up by thinking you weren't the best thing that ever happened to me.  I really want you back, and you ignoring my texts isn't a way to get me to leave.  If you don't take me back, okay.  But I will fight for you until my dying breath.  I love you, Chyna.  I will shout it until my dying breath.  I fucking love you.  My thoughts were destroying me while I was thinking about how to get you back, so I stopped thinking.  It hurt me more to not think of you then it did to think about your face and your laugh.  If you take me back, you can go your way, and I'll go your way too.  I saw that guy ask you on a date, and I have never felt so much jealousy in one moment then when I saw his smug face after you said yes."

"Cameron, if you loved me, if you really cared about me, you wouldn't have left me like you did.  You wouldn't have let my emotions drown me every night.  You shouldn't have left me when I needed you the most.  I gave you my all, I gave you the things that kept me going, I gave you my heart, my soul, and my love.  Every day that goes by I think about you.  Every day I realize that I am not the same person that I was when I was with you.  I was happy.  Every day I miss you more, but here's the thing.  If you cared just the slightest bit towards me you would have picked me up, you wouldn't have left me there to die alone, you could have fixed it the second you said it, but you didn't.  You let me there alone and now I'm starting to realize that I should start picking up the last pieces of my shattered heart and move on."

I sat there in the tension and waited for something else to happen.  I was not expecting the retaliation that happened.  "How about you two start over?"

I have never seen such an evil glare from my best friend in my life, and I stepped on her pet hamster.  Cam looked too optimistic, almost like a kid that was told he had been good for Santa.  "Why do you think I want another chance with him?"

I gave her the 'Really?' look and she turned her gaze to the ground.  Cameron stepped forward and grabbed her hand.  "Hi, my name's Cameron, what's yours?"

She brought her gaze up with a smile, "You are so stupid!  But what am I going to do about my date on Friday?"

"Cancel, I have a feeling he is feeling the same thing."

She pulled out her phone and saw an incoming text flash across the screen.  "You already threatened him with his life didn't you?"

"I told you I was jealous."

"How did you know I would forgive you?"

"Cydney's here."  I shrugged and pulled out my phone.  Ten missed calls and four texts, all from the same number.  Not Alex's though, Jake's.  I said goodbye to the reinvented couple and called him back.  

"Hey Jake, what's wrong?"

"Are you okay?  I heard what happened from Laurie and I just needed to make sure that you were okay.  I'm so sorry Cydney!"

"Wait, how did Laurie find out?  Is she okay?"

"Alex, but that doesn't matter, do you want me to come over?"

"Um, I'm at the mall with Chyna."

"I'll pick you up, meet me by Oakley's"

"Okay."  He hung up.  I retreated to my friends and told them I was leaving.  

"Do you need a ride home?"

"No, someone is coming to pick me up."

"Tell Alex I said hi."  Why did everyone assume it was always Alex?

I walked around to Oakley's.  Jake still wasn't there yet so I sat on the bench nearby.  I retreated into my own thoughts.  Alex never asked me if I was okay.  Frankly, whenever something bad happened, he didn't ask me how I was feeling, I just told him.  Jake asked.

I wiped away a couple tears directed at the fact that I handed everything to Alex without him asking, and he did the same to me.  I glanced up and saw Jake standing over me.  He helped me off the bench and took me to his car.  Leave it to the rich boys to own a Mercedes.

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We got to his house after a few minutes and I noticed one other car.  Laurie's.  I got inside his massive house and ran into her arms.  She held me and pet my hair.  Jake followed close behind me and shut the door that I left open.  I pulled away from my friend and saw her distaste towards her brother.  What was that for?  I turned to Jake and saw the ghost of a smile on his lips when he looked at me.  Did Laurie not want me here?  No, she had to.  She wouldn't have been there when I came inside if she didn't.

So why was she unhappy with her brother?  Jake ignored it as he led me to his room.  Laurie groaned but stomped upstairs to her room.  "Why is Laurie made at you?"

"Nothing major, we just got in a fight before I came to get you."

"Over what?  It didn't seem like a minor thing."

"She'll get over it."

"Do you want me to talk to her?"

"NO!" What the hell?  He didn't have to shout no.  I looked at his face and saw a worried expression.  Now I really want to know what this fight was about.

I sat on his bed and he sat next to me, a couple feet away.  "So are you okay?"

"I mean, I don't know how to define okay.  But I guess I'm alright.  I wish it didn't happen, but I also wish it didn't happen in the first place."

"I can't imagine how hard it was for you."  I didn't realize that he had gotten closer until I laid my head on his shoulders.  He put his hand over mine and we just sat like that.  I felt calm for the first time in a few days.  I hadn't realized that my phone started to vibrate until after the second time.  I picked it up and heard an angered voice on the other end.

"Where are you?"

"Hello to you too."

"Where are you Cydney?  I called Chyna and she said that I was with you."

"I'm with Jake.  He picked me up from the mall."

"I'm on my way."  I heard a click.  Jake stood up quickly looking around his room as if searching for a place to hide.  Not even ten minutes later, I heard pounding on the door and Laurie answering it.  "Just don't kill him, Alex."

He burst into the room and cornered Jake.  "I told you to stay away from her."

"It isn't like you cared about how she was feeling!"

"Bullshit!  If she wanted you she would have dated you!"  Were two boys really fighting over me?

"Boys!  I'm right here!"  Alex broke away from Jake and hugged me.  I instinctively hugged back as Jake clenched his fists.  Before they went at each other, I pushed Alex away and pointed to the bed. He sat down without protest and I made Jake sit next to him.  I wasn't going to tolerate them fighting like petty kindergarteners over a game of mine.  I wasn't a toy.