Neither Nathaniel nor I had spoken since I had entered into his office ten minutes ago. The tension was thick, suffocating me, but he didn't seem to notice-too engrossed in the paperwork in front of him. I don't know why I even bothered to show up. I supposed it was because I wanted to see him face to face-I hadn't seen him in three weeks, but I should have been used to the distance by now. We hardly saw each other anymore; he was so busy with other people he didn't even have the time to call.
I slowly walked around his spacious office, looking at the pictures he had in his office. A soft smile formed on my lips as I reached for an image on his bookshelf. It was a picture of us from the photo shoot in the Hamptons after the wedding. I remember how happy I was back then. So hopeful, so giddy, so ignorant to the fact that I'd live a life I'd resent myself for choosing.
Nathaniel held me in arms, hoisting me in the air so I was eye level with him. He was smiling broadly at me, one of the brilliant smiles I seldom saw, as the sun rose over the ocean, painting the sky a soft ballad of violet and pale blue. We were so young, so excited for the future. I didn't know that this was a game-I didn't know I was still a pawn-I thought that it was real, or it was at least real to me.
I had to tear my eyes away from the picture, setting it back on the shelf before doubt crept through me, making me second guess why I was here. I continued to peruse the shelves and froze when I came across a picture of Nathaniel and Portia. My blood ran cold as I turned the picture on its face, hiding the image. I shouldn't be jealous, I was the one who intruded on their happily ever after, but still the sight of his smile that he'd only worn for her was too much for me to bear. I wished, more than anything, that he cared for me even a little bit as he cared for her. Yes, I got his name, and the home I had always wanted, but I could never have his love, and that was all I really wanted, at least in the beginning.
I knew I shouldn't have turned the image on its face, but Nathaniel was too busy to notice my actions anyway. He was always too busy to notice me, even when I tried. It was like my cries were always met with silence. If I lived, or if I died, he would carry on his life the way he always had, he wouldn't miss a beat. If I disappeared today, I doubt he'd notice my absence. I'd spent three months in Paris and he didn't even bat an eye when he saw me walk in the office today. I played that small of a role in his life; I saw him less than my parent's saw each other during their first marriage, which made my skin crawl. I anticipated having some sort of relationship with my husband, not whatever this is. We were two strangers sharing a name and bank account.
I continued walking around the room, passing several more pictures of Nathaniel and me. I smiled bitterly as I stopped at the window, towering over the city. Anyone else would have thought Nathaniel and I to be this perfect couple. He was so good at pretending, and I was always so good at following his lead, no one had suspected a thing, not once in two years, until today.
She had planted the seed of doubt when she went to the media this morning, and truthfully, I was shocked it had taken her two years to finally come clean. I was exhausted from carrying out this charade. He screwed up; it is his problem. People are finally beginning to suspect the honest to God truth and I don't want to lie; not anymore. I wouldn't protect him from the media, from his friends, from his colleagues, from his parents. I refused to be his defense. If I was to be happy, I needed to think about myself, about Rafael, and think less of Nathaniel; the man I gave everything to, who treated it like it was nothing.
"Nathaniel," I whispered, breaking the silence, staring out the window of his office. He made some sort of noise behind me, too busy with his work to make out a sentence. I let out a cool breath before closing my eyes. It had to be done. It had to be said. I couldn't ignore it any longer. The elephant in the room could not be danced around. "I want a divorce," I said in a solute tone. The room was overwhelmingly silent. It was smothering me, making it difficult to think, so I continued. "I thought I could do it, but I can't-I can't be married to you any longer-"
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Something Borrowed
RomanceCaught up in the sins and glamour of high society life, Astoria became the girl no one could trust. In order to return to grace, she must do the unthinkable: find a husband before the end of the year... before her mother chooses for her. With only...