"Have you and Nathaniel talked about getting married again?" Daphne asked, taking another bite of ice cream from her pint sitting in her lap.
I shrugged. "He has brought it up a couple times since Catalina's baby shower," I said, digging my spoon deep in my pint. "But I feel like I'd be taking advantage of him," I said softly, sighing. "He could start over with someone-have a family-the family I took from him, you know? This isn't just about me, Daph. I can't let him give everything up to save face for the company. My mistakes should not be his."
"Have you asked Nathaniel about what he wants?" Daphne asked tentatively. I bristled, shaking my head slightly. I didn't want to know what he wanted. I was scared it would be the same thing I wanted.
The man who couldn't look away, who saw everything, who saw how sorry I was, could want me. And that terrified me.
"You cannot ignore him forever," Daphne reminded me as I groaned, setting my ice cream on the table, glaring straight at her.
"You sound just like Rafael right now," I whispered. "He told me the same thing."
"It's okay to miss Rafael, Astoria," Daphne said, scooting over so our knees brushed. "Would you be happy?"
I nibbled on my lower lip, thinking about all the times I'd asked myself the same question. Would I be happy?
"I think Nathaniel and I know everything we need to about each other to be happy," I said softly.
"But would you be happy?"
I pursed my lips, my heart hammering in my chest as I looked around my penthouse in Paris. I look to my piano that I played once for Nathaniel. I look to the window, where we shared many glasses of champagne, when things were simpler. I look to the kitchen, where we fell in love. I look to the staircase up to my office where Nathaniel had placed priceless books when I moved in. And last, I looked to my trembling hands that knew the answer before my mind did.
I couldn't get my mouth to form the words as I nodded my head.
"Then why are you so hesitant to accept his offer?" Daphne asked, unconsciously fingering the wedding band on her ring finger.
"The first time we were married, I went in with my heart," I said softly, focusing my eyes on the orange sky. "When I married Rafael, I went in with my heart," I continued, pausing. "My heart makes me do things that aren't in my best interest. This time, I want to go into a marriage with my mind, not my heart. I want to know its best. I want to go in with no reservations."
"Could you see him with someone else?" Daphne asked. I didn't respond. "Astoria, you and he both know that one of you needs to get married. Could you sit back and watch him marry someone else?"
"Nathaniel can do whatever he wants," I said nonchalantly, ignoring Daphne's eye roll.
"If he showed up tomorrow evening without you on his arm, would you be able to control yourself?" Daphne pressed.
I bristled. "He is allowed to go with other girls," I said dismissively.
"I dare you to call him and tell him you have a different date," Daphne said with a sinister smile.
"Who would I go with?" I asked, narrowing my eyes.
"Amberly and Livingston are separated right now because she is in Australia, why don't you invite him to the function? I hear he's in Paris for a case," Daphne said with a smirk.
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Something Borrowed
RomanceCaught up in the sins and glamour of high society life, Astoria became the girl no one could trust. In order to return to grace, she must do the unthinkable: find a husband before the end of the year... before her mother chooses for her. With only...