Mistaken Love

I'm Sorry...

Hello, my fellow readers. I know you're all tired of these ridiculous A/N's, but this time, this note is serious.

I haven't been putting my best effort into this book lately. No, I'm not ending it, but I'm most likely going to be putting this book on hold for a short amount of time. Things haven't been all great for me lately.

Most of you guys know that I am a college student. I want to major in dental and minor in writing. Back in January, I have started my very first semester of college at a 2 year community college. I signed up for 3 classes, while I worked full time. It was tough, but I enjoyed working and going to school for the time being. It made me really happy that I was keeping myself busy and pushing forward in the real world, considering that I had recently graduated high school in 2015.

Unfortunately, life for me has been extremely tough. I recently quit my job, because I was being paid $5.00 an hour, under the table. The atmosphere of my previous job just wasn't helping me; emotionally, physically and most of all, financially.

Since I was bringing home small paychecks, it stopped me from continuing on with school. I had a plan, that I was going to transfer to a different community college. The school I am currently enrolled in, doesn't have my major OR my minor. My siblings showed me a different school, which has what I want. They even welcomed me into their home when I eventually attended the college. I tried everything, from financial aid to loans. I got denied by F.A. and my mother isn't really helping me out with filling out loans. Days turned into weeks, as I begged my mother to help, but nothing worked, which pushed my plans into moving in with my siblings and starting school in the early September, to be pushed to January.

The other day, my mom told me that I had until Monday to find a job, otherwise my phone will be shut off. I have been on my bike (I don't have my licences just yet... that's a different story for later) from the early times of noon, to 10 P.M. searching. I have spoke to a couple places, but nothing has happened just yet.

I am dumbfounded, because as soon as I got out of high school, I instantly became independent with starting school and having my own job. Now that I have lost both, my mom is taking things from me, slowly each day. While she's doing this, I am looking at my step brother, who has graduated 4 years ago, and has no job. He cleans the living room, family room, and bathroom once a week, and then is gone, while I'm stuck cleaning the kitchen once or twice a day, while I'm continuing my everyday struggle.

All of this stress has officially taking a huge toll on my body. I don't fall asleep until 6 A.M.; I wake up at 9:00 A.M., three hours later. I eat one meal a day; when I get tired of job searching, I stop at my boyfriend's, in which we hang out for a few and he offers me dinner. I've become more emotional, as I'll randomly burst into tears, or become very short tempered.

I feel useless, helpless and drained at this point in life. Unfortunately, this isn't easy to deal with; anybody who has faced this will know.

I'm not writing this to make people worry about me, I just want to let you all know what's going on. I'll be okay soon; I am positive about that. Who knows, maybe in a few days, next week, a month from now... I'll have a stable job, and I'll be getting ready to go back into school, and maybe I'll be inspired enough to write and edit better.

I have started writing chapter twenty three for you guys. Once that chapter is posted, I will be taking a short break. I tried to edit and post chapters as fast as I could, so I could publish this book in the 2016 Wattys, but I don't think that'll happen this year.

To conclude this horrid note, I would like to thank you guys, again, for the views and votes! Just a couple weeks ago, this book was at 4K views. ... 6K... wow. I have never thought this book would make it to that number. I view each vote, view and comment each day, and you all don't realized how happy it makes me. You guys are the best!

As I said above, I'll post chapter twenty three soon. Hopefully I'll feel inspired soon to write again. I hope you all understand, so please be patient and bare with me. Every writer needs a short brake to recollect themselves every once in awhile.

I'll be back soon. I promise.
Thank you guys again for everything, and I am sorry for posting another A/N.

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- Taylor Lynne.
08/18/2016 -- 5:30 A.M.