One Big Family

60. Starving

You know just what to say
Shit, that scares me

It was Lauren and I's anniversary and her gift was a bunch of photo books that had a bunch of memories. The first picture was when we first met, she was hugging me. That day we practically flirted all day and she knew all the right things to say to make me fall for her.

I should just walk away but I can't move my feet
The more that I know you, the more I want to

As I fell more for her I got more scared that Lauren didn't feel the same about me and I would be fucked sooner or later. I tried so hard to distance myself from her but it never worked.

Something inside me's changed
I was so much younger yesterday, oh

I looked at a picture of us acting like children. I used to be so childish and made so many stupid mistakes. I was free and didn't care for many things apart from my career and people who matter the most to me until Lauren came into my life and suddenly I felt love for someone who wasn't a fan of family.

I didn't know that I was starving 'til I tasted you
Don't need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo

I smiled at a photo of myself hiding my face in Lauren's neck. I had no idea how much of myself was missing before Lauren, I wasn't true to myself and wasn't that confident. She always have me butterflies but hard hitting ones. I'd feel it for hours on end.

By the way, by the way, you do things to my body
I didn't know that I was starving 'til I tasted you
(I didn't know that I... I didn't know that I... 'til I tasted you)
(I didn't know that I... I didn't know that I... 'til I tasted you)
By the way, by the way, you do things to my body
I didn't know that I was starving 'til I tasted you

You know just how to make my heart beat faster
Emotional earthquake, bring on disaster

Lauren sat next to me as I picked up a picture of us holding hands while coming off the plane. We weren't dating but even then anytime she was around my heart would go crazy. I looked and saw one of Lauren crying. That was our first fight, she stayed with the girls and kept looking at pictures of us on Twitter and Instagram.

You hit me head on, got me weak in my knees
Yeah, something inside me's changed
I was so much younger yesterday, aye
So much younger yesterday, oh, yeah

I didn't know that I was starving 'til I tasted you
Don't need no butterflies when you give me the whole damn zoo

Next photo is of Lauren and I's first kiss. No ones kiss could compare to Lauren's. I always craved it and how it would affect me.

By the way, by the way, you do things to my body
I didn't know that I was starving 'til I tasted you
(I didn't know that I... I didn't know that I... 'til I tasted you)
(I didn't know that I... I didn't know that I... 'til I tasted you)
By the way, by the way, you do things to my body
I didn't know that I was starving 'til I tasted you
You, yeah, 'til I tasted you
(I didn't know that I... I didn't know that I... 'til I tasted you)
By the way, by the way, you do things to my body

My breath hitches as I pick up the final photo..our wedding. Lauren was in her dress that made her look so beautiful. I smiled as I remember all the ways she'd make my body feel.

I didn't know that I was starving 'til I tasted you

The more that I know you, the more I want to
Something inside me's changed
I was so much younger yesterday