Hotel Room Service ( A Julian Draxler Fanfiction)[Completed]

Chapter 38

~Two types of people can't look you in the eyes, the ones trying to hide a lie and the ones trying to hide a love~

~When we were in high school~

Julian

- The game was awful and you all know that. Can't believe we actually lost to a team that's a lot worse than us. What's wrong with you guys ? Yesterday you played as if you didn't care whether we would win or lose.
Our coach was extremelly mad and he was yelling at us. He had actually done that twice yesterday after the match and he also did that today after our practise. The truth is we played awfully and I did played awful for sure. I couldn't concentrate cause I was exhausted and I was also thinking of Lila. I tried to call her yesterday just to check on her but she didn't respond. Could she be mad at me ? I really don't know.
- That was it for today. You can change and make sure you'll give your best in training this week cause I won't allow any other results like that.
He announced strictly and he left our changing rooms. After him leaving the guys started a deep conversation about the game and then started making fun of the way our coach reacted. I couldn't help but laugh cause I know our coach was exaggerating.
- Hey, Julian I think your girl's in the stands.
One of my teammates announced.
- Really ?
I asked surprised. Was Lila in the stands ? How did she know I had practise today ? I really don't remember mentioning it.
- Yes, I think she's.
- Okay, thanks.
I replied, changing as fast as possible, not even bothering take my things from the changing rooms and head to the stands. I didn't have a lot of time to spend with Lila lately and I didn't like that. I wish I could spend more time with her.
Heading to the stands, I noticed that she was speaking with my coach. That was even more weird. What did she have to say with him ?
Her expression was tired and sad. I hope she didn't tell her anything bad. I knew my coach didn't agree with us being in a relation because he thought that this was distracting us. He kept saying:
- When being worldwide famous footballers, you can have any woman you want.
But that was the problem. I don't think I'll ever want anyone else besides Lila.
When Lila noticed me coming towards them she looked at me in the eyes. They were red.
Fuck.
That meant she had cried and for once again I had no idea why.
My coach noticed that she was looking at something else and he turned to face me.
- Julian....
He said panicked.
- I came....
- Yeah, I know why. Lila and I had a little conversation. But I'll leave you alone now.
He said looking at Lila as if he had told her to do something.
We both didn't say anything and he left.
- What did he tell you ?
I asked immediately.
Lila looked at me and started crying.
- Julian....
She said and I hugged her. Why did I have the terrible feeling that everything was falling apart ?

- You really don't want to talk about it ?
I asked her again. The fact that she didn't tell me what was wrong made me furious.
- No.
She replied looking at her drink. We were in our usual cafe and I was trying my hardest just to make her talk to me.
- Please Lila....
I begged her and I touched her hand. She looked at our hands as if I had done something terrible. What the fuck was wrong ?
She looked away as if she was thinking something extremelly important.
- Can we leave Julian ? My head's killing me.
She complained and I nodded.
- Of course.
I responded.

In our way to her house she was silent. Why ? Lila's never silent. She's noisy. She laughs, she doesn't stop talking. These are some things that made me fall for her. I was always the one being shy in our relation, I was the one difficult to open up. But now there was she, no talkative at all with her eyes red from some tears I never saw.
And the question was why ? Why doesn't she tell me ? Why is she so sad ? Why ?
Arriving outside her house she looked at it as if she didn't want to go inside.
Maybe she doesn't.
I thought to myself.
Maybe she wants to stay with me.
- I'll see you tomorrow.
She said and she tried to leave but I stopped her.
- Lila....
I placed my forehead against hers making her look at me.
- Please let me go Julian.
She said but her expression betrayed that she didn't want that.
- Why are you so distant ? What have I done ?
- It has nothing to do with you.
- So, why don't you tell me ? I can't handle it when you're sad, you can't even imagine how much it affects me.
- I can. That's what your coach......
- Forget him. Forget what he told you. I don't want to hear it. I don't care. I could give everything up just to be with you. I could even give up football.
Her eyes became larger hearing that. Why was she so surprised ? Haven't I proved that to her multiple times ?
- Don't ever say that again Julian.
She replied scared.
- Lila stop changing the subject, just tell me what's wrong.
- I can't.
- Why ?
- Cause it's not one thing that's wrong. Everything's wrong.
- And why don't you tell me ? I love you Lila. Do you think that it's going to change ?
She didn't respond. So that was the problem ? I took her head in my hands and I kissed her. I though she wouldn't kiss me back but I was mistaken. She kissed me back as if she needed to kiss me and as if she needed to be kissed.
- Lila, mum says to come inside.
Valerie was standing at the door looking down. She was also sad. She actually seemed so. Like she was upset. So the problem was with Lila's family ? If so I was a little relieved knowing that I wasn't the one making her sad. Cause I really blamed myself for that.
- Give me a minute Valerie.
She said and Valerie dissappeared.
- I'll leave. Just call me. No, I'll call you. I want to check if you're okay.
- I love you Julian.
She just said caught me by surprise.
- I know it Lila, but I love you more.
- I hope you do.
She said and she was the one kissing me this time. Her kiss was so intense that left me breathless.
- I'll call you later.
- Okay. See you.
She said and ran into her house.
- I love you.
I whispered to her while she was closing the door.

When I called her hours later I think she was better. Not a lot better but better. She was calm but still not telling me what bothered her a few hours earlier. Something was up and I got to learn what. I hated when she kept secrets from me and she was doing it more and more often lately. I didn't want to push her but I couldn't stand the fact that she didn't trust me anymore. We were dating for almost a year so far and this was making me feel as if everything we had been through didn't matter to her. I wish I could do something to learn, then I could help her with that. Maybe I could ask Brine because I'm pretty sure she knew what was going on but then again Brine would tell Lila and Lila would be mad at me. And I didn't want Lila to be mad at me. I hated it when we fought. It rarely happened but still. What I realized was that I was madly in love with her. When she was around nothing else mattered. Did I really mean it when I said I could give up football just to be with her ? I guess I was. I loved her more than anything. Being with her was always freeing me from the stress and pressure I was going through lately.
Without realizing it I started thinking of all the things we have been through since we started dating. I was addicted to her. And that was the scariest part of all.