Hotel Room Service ( A Julian Draxler Fanfiction)[Completed]

Chapter 48

~The worst situation is between what you know and how you feel~

Today

Julian

- I'm so excited to announce that........
Kim started saying making hand gestures.
- What ?
Vanessa asked being excited.
- I have already finished with the booking of the ceremony's place and with the guest list!
Kim announced and Vanessa screamed, then hugged her.
- Thank you so much Kim, you're the best, for sure!
- Anything for you.
Kim responded smiling at both of us. I tried my hardest not to saw her how dissappointed I was. Because I was dissappointed. A lot dissappointed.
- Julian, isn't that amazing ? We're almost there! Everything's ready. We're getting married!
Vanessa screamed and Kim clapped her hands being as excited as Vanessa was.
- Yes, finally.
I replied, smiling, hoping I could fool them. I guess I could, because they were both so excited that they didn't seem to care about me.
- You know what ? I've found the perfect wedding dress for you! It's absolutely amazing. I'm pretty sure it was designed for you.
Kim said and they both screamed.
- I need to go for a walk.
I announced. I really wanted some time on my own.
- Sure baby. Make sure you're late. Cause I need to try the wedding dress and you shouldn't see me with it before we're going to the church.
Vanessa said not looking at me.
- Yes, I'll do my best.
I replied rolling my eyes.
I headed to the front door, hearing them screaming like teenage girls over someone famous. I exited immediately not able to bear with them anymore.

I had always liked walking. It was one of the things that made me relax. It was also one of the things that made me think the most, so I had avoided it when I had first broken up with Lila.
I really needed to walk right now, but I wasn't in the mood of meeting any fans so I decided that visiting my parents was better. They already knew about the wedding and they were both very happy with it. Apparently everyone was happy with this wedding except for me.
Before going to my parent's house, I passed by the high school I had been to. This school, was related with strong emotions. The truth is, it's not the school that made me feel emotional, no way. It was the fact that in this school, I have met Lila for the first time. Our relation begun there, in a school party. Our first kiss, was the same night, in this school party. I remember every littke detail of our relation, and I know that this is stupid. There's no way, that she remembers all these things. I always had the feeling that I had put more effort than she did. That was wrong, of course, and I knew it now. It had cost me a lot when she left. I think I managed to overcome it for a while but when I saw her again, I knew that nothing had changed. It was like, nothing had happened. When she was there, everything was much more easier.
I realized my eyes had started filling with tears, thinking all these stuff. I loved her more than I had ever loved anyone, yet I have decided to never talk to her again.
Starting the engine again, I drived all the way to my parents' house. I needed to talk with someone else except than Vanessa.
I reached the house and I knocked on the door.
Memories of Lila and I being here came to my mind again.
I looked around. In my fantasy we were both still there. I remember all the times, I had made her play football with me, although she didn't want to. I remember all the times, we were just laying in our garden together, chatting about random facts. She was mainly talking and I was mainly listening. She was always the talkative one, she was always the funny one, she was always the one being noisy. My parents adored her. I was shy introducing her to my parents, back then, because I thought they wouldn't like her. That was wrong of course. Lila, was playful, clever and all these kind of stuff and she had the ability to make people like her without even trying.
- Julian ?
My mother asked surprised opening the door.
- Hello, mom.
I said hugging her.
- I've missed you. You don't have time for your mother anymore ?
She asked smiling.
- I'm sorry mom. With the wedding preparations, I barely had time to do the basics.
I lied.
- Okay, I guess I can forgive you. Come inside.
She said and I followed her.
- How are you lately ?
I asked her.
- Good. We have guests today. Patrick brought his girlfriend. He wants us to meet her.
My mom said being excited.
I smirked. I could never believe that Patrick could have a serious relation.
Following my mother to the living room, I spotted my father and Patrick with his girlfriend.
- Hi.....
I started saying but my mother interrupted me.
- Julian, came!
She announced and they all look at me.
- Finally, Julian, I thought you forgot that we exist.
My father said giving me a pat in the shoulder.
- I haven't dad.
I replied.
- Nice to see you again Julian, this is Elayn, my girlfriend.
Patrick announced.
- Nice to meet you.
Elayn said giving me her hand.
- Nice to meet you too.

- So, there won't be any special party with girls before getting married ? Because then, you won't have the chance.
Patrick said winking at me. I was glad, we have left the others and we were just the two of us in the garden, while my parents and Elayn were still at the living room, cause I really didn't want my parents to listen to this conversation.
- No, Patrick.
I replied rolling my eyes.
- You don't seem very excited Julian. What's wrong ? Have you understand that being single is much more easy than being into a serious relation ?
I looked at him blankly. He had no clue.
- No. I'm just tired, I had practise earlier.
That, at least, was true.
- Okay, okay, no need of being mad.
He responded laughing.
- I guess, I have to go.
I said checking the time.
- So soon ?
Patrick asked, raising his eyebrows.
- Yes, Vanessa will worry.
- She controls your entire life.
Patrick said laughing.
- She does.
I replied raising my shoulders as if I didn't care.
- You'll regret the fact that you're getting married so young.
Patrick screamed to me, laughing, while I walked away.
- I have already regretted it.
I replied, laughing, trying to sound cool, but I knew I wasn't fooling anyone.

Entering my house, I saw luggages, on the floor.
- Uhm, Vanessa ?
I asked. After a while, she was coming downstairs with Kim.
- Julian, you came ?
She asked kissing me.
- Yes, I did. Where are you going ?
- I'm going to stay in Kim's till we get married. Have you forgot that we are supposed to see each other at the church ?
She asked kissing me.
- No, I haven't.
I replied hugging her.
- Cool. See you in five days.
She said hugging me one last time.
- See you, Julian.
Kim said and I just nodded.

The house, seemed pretty empty, without Vanessa. I had started feeling lonely. I knew I had to exercise, but I was just laying on the couch feeling depressed. The truth is, I had only felt depressed once in my life. No need, to say which period of my life. I decided to have a shower and then try to get some sleep. I had a morning practise tomorrow, and I needed not to be exhausted.
Of course, it was impossible to sleep. The more I thought of it, the more I realized, I didn't want to marry Vanessa. I wonder, how things would have been if I haven't met Lila, again, after all these years. Was it possible that I would like to marry Vanessa ? I thought that I knew how I was feeling about her, but then I had to stay in the hotel, Lila worked, only to understand, that I wasn't sure at all about the feelings I had for Vanessa.
The truth is, I had always been the one, who was easy to be manipulated by the others. I'm not proud for that, I just know it and I have accept it. I guess Kim was thankful for that, because she could take all the right choices for me and control my life, and that was something she really liked. But, I know Kim's not the only one to blame. The fault's mostly mine. I don't have the guts to change things right now and I hate it. I have destroyed my life and I pray that would be someone to save me from that. I wish there was someone, that could talk to Vanessa instead of me cause I had always wanted to avoid conflicts, especially with Vanessa. I wish there was someone I could talk to and tell them how I feel cause right now I do feel alone.
I wish there was someone able to take the decisions I should. I wish there was someone to help me right now. I wish there was someone to help me tell Vanessa how things really are. The truth is, I really wish there was someone able to stop my wedding.