Hotel Room Service ( A Julian Draxler Fanfiction)[Completed]

Chapter 29

~When everything irritates you, it simply means you're missing someone~

~Today~

Lila

With my head in my hands, I try to think again what should I do with Julian. I can't believe he came back just to tell me that everything that happened was a misunderstanding. But I don't think it really is. And I don't really want to find out. Kim was clear and I love my job and I know Julian does the same. So, I should most probably convince him head back although that was the last thing I wanted to tell him when he kissed me. It was early in the morning and my shift has come to an end. I got changed waiting for Meghan to come to her shift. I was daydreaming when she came inside the lobby and I barely recognized her. She was smiling like a fool staring at me.
- So what do you think ?
She asked and she was obviously referring to her hair.
- Meghan you're......
Stunning, too damn beautiful, I didn't really know how to express that.
- Do you like it ? Robert hasn't seen me yet.
She said blushing.
- You're amazing.
I said when I could finally speak.
- I hope so.
She said smiling brightly.
Meghan being brunette wasn't as sexy as she was before but she was sweeter and a lot more beautiful.
I smiled back at her.
- I've got to go. See you.
I said hastily hoping to leave as soon as possible so not to bump into Julian. I couldn't handle that, especially after me leaving immediately after he kissed me. I felt so embarrassed. I'll never forgive myself if I do something that it'll threaten his carreer.
I walked all the way to my house almost running and I really hate running. I didn't know why I was acting like that. I guess I was afraid that if Kim finds out what happened then it's over for both of us and I could handle me trying to find another job but I really couldn't handle Julian being sad.
My hands were shaking as I opened my appartment's door. I closed it behind me and I walked immediately into my room. I wanted to sleep although I knew I was pretty upset even to try it.

- You barely speak.
Thomas said wrapping his hands around me.
- I'm a little tired.
I said avoiding to look at him.
- That's a shame. I had some other plans for us.
He said kissing my neck.
- No, you didn't. You had enough of this.
I said giggling.
- I meant going out with Robert and Meghan.
Thomas said while raising his eyebrows.
- Yes, sure.
I agreed hoping that if I did something different than being in my house then I had bigger chances of forgetting what happened with Julian. Not that I wanted to forget it but it seemed like I didn't have any other choice.
- Perfect. Robert wanted to try a new restaurant I'm pretty sure Meghan will agree so you better change. I'm coming back to pick you up in a while.
- Fine.
I said while leading him to the door. Thomas and I always spent a lot of time together. But after us involving in this relation we're all the time together. And I had started to being used to that until Julian came making me have doubts for my feelings again. Not that I really had doubts. Thomas will always try and I appreciate that but Julian was the man that I loved. That I never stopped loving and the man I don't think I'll ever stop loving.
When closing the door behind him I walked to my room again. I really hoped I could have a great time with Robert and Meghan cause I really wanted to forget about Julian. But I couldn't. He said he broke up with his girlfriend and I believe him although it didn't seem possible to me in the beginning. And the question is why did he break up with his girlfriend and why did he just came back to apologize ? What if he really cared ? And I had dreamt a lot of times of him coming and telling me that he gave up everything just to be with me. And everything seem to be so perfect in my dreams.......
My thoughts were interrupted by my phone and for a momemt I wished it was him but then I rememberred that this was impossible. Checking it I recognized Meghan's number.
- Hello ?
- Hi, Lila. How are you ?
- Fine actually. What about you ?
- I'm good.
She paused a little making me think that she wanted to tell me something kind of a secret.
- What's wrong Meghan ?
- Well, I'm in Robert's house right now and I know that I'll see you in a while but I wanted to tell you something in person.
She said lowering her voice.
- Sure. What is it ?
I asked and by the way of her response I could understand that she had second thoughts about telling me.
- Well, during my shift in the hotel I thought......
- Yes.
- I thought that I saw Julian.
She said lowering her voice again as she said his name.
I tried to play it cool. Should I tell her the truth or lie to her for not an obvious reason ?
I closed my eyes thinking the choices. When I finally opened them again I whispered.
- Can Robert hear you ?
- No, he's having a shower.
- Okay. Yes, you saw Julian. He came back.
- Really ? That's.....but why ?
- I'm not sure. He....he wants to explain to me why he left.
- He came till here just to explain ?
Meghan asked being obvious sarcastic.
- Well, yes.
- Are you kidding me Lila ? If he didn't care why should he come back ?
- I don't know.
I admitted.
- At least tell me that you gave him a chance to speak.
I blushed hearing her words. I was handling this whole thing pretty wrong.
- We didn't have a chance to talk.
I lied.
- Lila, be careful with what you do. You don't want to hurt Thomas.......by telling him that you preferred to go to a club than going to that restaurant besides it was Robert's idea.
Meghan said and I understood that Robert could now hear us.
- Who is it ?
I could hear his voice while coming closer to Meghan.
- It's Lila. Anyway Lila, I've got to hang up. We'll talk later.
- Sure. Thanks for informing me.
- You're welcome.

- Still can't believe he rejected this offer.
Thomas said being into a deep conversation with Robert. Meghan and I didn't talk much. We were mainly communicating through facial expressions. I needed to hear her opinion about Julian but I couldn't ask her now.
I had started feeling anxious about this whole thing. Julian made me feel like that. Okay, Julian made me feel a lot more than that and that's why I was feeling guilty. I was fake. Fake to Thomas, fake to myself, fake to everyone. I had started feeling really uncomfortable and I couldn't relax. I felt like my skinny jeans didn't fit me anymore.
- Lila, can you come with me to the bathroom please ?
Meghan asked interrupting my thoughts.
- Of course.
I responded looking nervously at Thomas who was smiling at me.
- I didn't tell you earlier but you look really sexy.
He whispered to my ear while moving his hand from my knee to my thights.
I blushed but not because of his compliment, I had been used to them. I blushed because I was feeling guilty once again, because I was thinking of Julian saying that to me and moving his hand......
- Lila......
Meghan said again looking at me.
- Coming.
I said heading to the bathroom as well.
- The food was great.
She said as we got into the bathroom acting as if she wanted to talk to me about the food.
- Yes.
I responded.
- Robert was once again right.
She said making me roll my eyes.
- What's the big deal Meg ?
She looked at me.
- About Julian.....
She said and I hold my breath.
- Yes, what about him ?
I asked calmly as if I hadn't noticed that my heart was starting to beat faster.
- What are you going to do ?
- Nothing you know that Meghan. I don't want to cause him any trouble.
- Don't you think that he's in much trouble by coming here ? You act stupid by ignoring him.
I looked down feeling ashamed that she was scolding me as if I was a small child.
- And what should I do ?
- Talk to him Lila.
She said looking herself in the mirror while making her skirt.