Hotel Room Service ( A Julian Draxler Fanfiction)[Completed]

Chapter 52

~Two past lovers can only remain friends if they never loved each other, or if they still do~

Today

Julian

The plane was landing once again in Munich. My heart started beating faster only in the thought that I was in the same city with her once again. I know I had to avoid her at least until things were normal with my life again. Hannah agreed in that. She was supportive with all this and I really appreciated it. My life has really been a mess since I broke up with Vanessa. Kim had something to do with it. It was obvious. Although I fired her she still tried to be in my life. Hannah was trying to fix things but it really didn't work. I had no doubt at all that Kim was crazy.
Munich was a very beautiful city and I couldn't help but smile when arriving.
The truth is, I haven't lived here but I would do if I had the chance.
The match against Bayern was really important but there was no way we were going to win. Last time, we lost 5-1. It was dissappointing. At least we could do our best. I was going to do my best, but I was absent minded all the time. The thought of her being here didn't let me concentrate.
I knew I couldn't avoid her any longer, but if we decided to be together now, paparazzi would destroy her life and that's exactly what I didn't want.
After all this time, after all these five years, I realized that I couldn't live without her. It's true. I tried. It's also true that I failed miserably.
I loved her more than anything and I'm pretty sure she knows that. Everyone knows that. My entire family, Kim and I'm pretty sure Vanessa knew it too and this is exactly why she had been so insecure throughout our relation.
- Thinking about the match ?
Ricardo asked interrupting my thoughts.
- Yes. Kind of.
I responded laughing.
- You're not thinking about the match.
He whispered to me and then laughed.
- I actually do.
- Yes, Draxler, the matches and the practises, are all you think about the last days.
He replied raising his eyebrows.
- Actually, they are.
I replied and I burst out laughing.
- See ? You don't even believe it yourself.
- What am I suppossed to do ?
- You've got to find her. And talk to her. Explain to her how things are lately for you, although I'm pretty sure she knows........
Ricardo said raising his eyebrows.
Yeah, she must know. All the newspapers are talking about my broken engagement. Vanessa couldn't bear with that and left. I really don't understand why Kim does that. Vanessa is a friend of hers, I know that she's trying to hurt me, but she's also hurting Vanessa this way.

Arriving at the hotel, I felt relieved that we were going to stay in a completely different hotel, from the one that Lila used to work. I don't know if she has found another job yet, but I can't just ask her. I really wish things were easier between us. Everything would be a lot easier if we wouldn't have met again after five years. Sometimes, I imagine how would it be and sometimes, I think it could be the best. If I hadn't seen her again, I would be married to Vanessa now, which isn't something I want but maybe it was the best way to a normal life. As normal as my life can be, anyway. I walked inside the lobby admiring the hotel. It was really good looking and it was huge. It was way better than the one Lila worked.
Heading to the reception we asked for our rooms. I was sharing mine with Ricardo.
- We've got last practise tomorrow morning before the match.
Ricardo informed me and I nodded.
- Yeah, I know.
- What's wrong with you Jule ? You're not paying attention to me.
Ricardo said friendly slapping my cheek.
- Don't call me like that.
I said trying to act mad at him.
Ricardo knew that Lila used to call me like that. I told him, when I told him our story after breaking up with Vanessa.
Ricardo had found that kind of funny and insisted that he should call me that way himself. I had found it funny myself back then, but now it irritates me as he keeps calling me like that.
- Why Jule, I think it suits you and don't worry, you can call me Lil.
He said making a girly voice and I burst out laughing.
- You don't help.
- I actually think I do. You laughed. How often does this happen lately ?
I thought of it. He was right. I didn't laugh often lately. I didn't even smile but I had to admit that I was happier than before when being engaged to Vanessa.
- You act ridiculously anyway.
I said smirking.
- Yes, Jule tell me about it.
He said winking at me.