Hotel Room Service ( A Julian Draxler Fanfiction)[Completed]

Chapter 44

Today

Julian

- I love you!
Her words are stuck into my head. If only she knew how much I love her. How much I loved her then and how much I do love her now and how much I never stop loving her. She means the word to me. But a phrase is stuck into my head:
If you love it, let it go.
Although I let myself go this time.
And I can't convince myself that this was the right decision.
Fortunately, Kim managed to book me a ticket cause I couldn't stay there any more. I couldn't stay in Munich. I can't stand the fact that she's with someone else that makes her happy. Cause it's more than obvious that I failed to do that myself.
The flight back to Wolfsburg was long to me but the truth is I wish it could last longer. I had to think what I was going to say to Vanessa cause indeed I had a lot of explanations to give her. I really wished that Kim could have say everything to her but Kim wasn't there to make my life easier. Vanessa would be mad and the truth is that she had the right to be mad, because I left without saying anything and we were getting married soon.
Married.
I never said that I wanted that but since Kim's my manager I don't think that what I want really matters.
Fortunately, nobody had recognized me and I was thankful for that. I couldn't stand it if fans or anyone else would approach me right now.

The endless flight came once more to an end and arriving at the airport I immediately saw Kim, waiting for me.
When she noticed me, I felt emabarrassed. I really had to give her a lot of explanations.
She waved at me with her hands, carefully not to call my name in case someone could recognize me.
I approached her. Her expression was not nothing I could possibly describe. She was more than just mad. She was furious.
- Welcome back!
She said sarcastically.
- Nice to see you again Kim.
I responded carefully.
Kim chuckled and then gave me a pair of sunglasses and a black jacket with a hood.
- At least, take care of your privacy.
She said while rolling her eyes.
She was really mad. Really, really mad.
- Thanks.
I said taking them and following her to her car.
- I really look forward on hearing what you'll say to Vanessa.
She said entering her car. I did so, while thinking that she came to pick me up from the airport in case that I would change my mind. This woman was really unpredictable.
- What I'll say to Vanessa, is between me and Vanessa, you're out of this.
I informed her and she smirked.
- Whatever you do, it's my business Julian.
She said proudly while starting the engine.
Kim was right. She knew whatever I was doing because I let her do that. It was my fault that she was always involved in my life. I had given her space in my life and because she was a friend of Vanessa she had really taken advantage of that.
- I would really appreciate it if you could give me some space this time.
I said while staring outside my window.
- Then explain to me why....why you left like that. I really can't understand it.
- I had to.
- Why ?
- Because I had to.
- Julian, please, what's so important with this girl ?
- There's not a girl.
- There's. I'm referring to the receptionist and you know it.
I was glad that I was wearing the sunglasses so that I could roll my eyes without her seeing me.
- We should forget this whole story Kim.
- I agree. But I don't think that you're able to forget.
- Then you're wrong.
- Am I ? How can you know if you weren't able to forget her all these years ?
- So, you know about our story ?
- Of course I do, Julian. And I find it kind of stupid that you are still haunted by her ghost, cause that's what she's a ghost. She's not yours and you're not hers, and although I know that this hurts, you have to overcome it. She can't offer you anything. Not even her love. Cause she doesn't love you, if you ask me. If she loved you, she would have fought for your relation. Even a long distance one.
- You don't know the whole story Kim.
I answered. I didn't know the whole story myself before some hours.
- Of course I do Julian. I know everything. I've learned what really happened because I wanted to find out why this girl was so important to you.
I looked down. I was so dissappointed.
- Have you told Vanessa ?
I asked.
- Are you serious ? And let that destroy your wedding ? It seems like you don't know me Julian.
She said and I have to admit she was right. She was a really big fan of my wedding. She was a really big fan of whatever made me sad in general.

Vanessa was standing at the door as we arrived. When she saw me, she hugged me like she never had before.
- Don't you ever do that again!
She said while crying.
- It's over now Vanessa. We should forget it, I promise it'll never happen again.
I reassured her smiling at her, but it was obvious that I wasn't fooling anyone.
- No way, Draxler, you're going to tell me everything right now, otherwise I swear we're not going to get married. Not if we have secrets between us. You know that I can't accept that.
I rolled my eyes. I already had a headache because of everything that had happened today, I really wasn't able to give explanations to Vanessa.
- Please Vanessa, let's talk about it some other time.
Vanessa laughed and I closed my eyes. She wasn't going to give up in any way.
- I meant what I said previously Julian, I'm not going to marry you unless you tell me why the hell you left like that.
I looked down. She was acting with stupidity and stubborness right now, but I had acted way more stupid myself.
- I think you should give him some time Vanessa.
Kim said and for the first time in my life I liked what she said.
- Shut up, Kim, cause I'm not over with you as well, yet. Cause you're a liar, you pretend to be my friend, but you're lying yourself, and don't you dare say again that you don't know where Julian was cause I know you do.......
Vanessa said and burst out crying. I looked at Kim who raised her shoulders apologetically.
- I'm going to bring you some water.
I said heading to the kitchen.
- I don't need water, I only need the truth!
Vanessa shouted but I made my way to the kitchen.
I stayed there for a moment, praying that she could relax cause I couldn't bear her like that.
I checked my phone for any missing calls, hoping that Lila could have called me.
No.
I didn't really want that. That could only cause more problems, besides I was trying my hardest to forget her.
I took a glass of water for myself, trying to relax and another one to Vanessa.
- Here you are.
I said giving her the glass. Kim was trying to calm her down but Vanessa was completely out of her mind. Kim was whispering something at her trying to make her relax, but as Vanessa heard what she was saying she burst out crying even more.
- You're both hypocretes and liars.
She screamed throwing the glass with the water on the floor. I was starting to really worry about her, but the truth was she was right. I wasn't the best boyfriend she could have although she was more than just a loyal girlfriend.
- I'm going to search for any pills Vanessa. You should stop acting like that.
Kim said and it was her turn to head to the kitchen.
I stayed there only with Vanessa and the truth was, she was freaking me out. I have never seen her reacting like that before. She was completely out of her mind.
- Julian, go away, please. I really need some time on my own.
She said and I nodded.
Without saying a word, I headed as well to the kitchen.
- I'm sorry, but Julian, can't talk right now.
Kim announced talking with someone from my phone, that I had forgotten there previously.
When she saw me, she hang up. Her expression had something guilty that made me wonder who was she talking with.
- Who was it ?
I asked with curiosity.
- No one.
She answered immediately.
- And why were you talking with no one ?
I asked and I approached her in an attempt to take my phone from her.
- Go to Vanessa, Julian.
- Not without seeing who were you talking with.
- Never.
She said throwing it down and stepping on it.