Hotel Room Service ( A Julian Draxler Fanfiction)[Completed]

Chapter 41

~Don't ever feel attached to someone unless they feel the same about you, one sided love can mentally destroy you~

Today

Lila

- Will you tell me how the hell do you know about the warnings Thomas ?
I screamed at him. He didn't respond. Again.
- It's really not what you think Lila.
- And how the hell do you know what I'm thinking ?
I screamed again. That was too much. I couldn't control myself but something was up. Thomas knew about the warnings Kim wrote me to keep me away from Julian and I never mentioned something like that to him. I looked at him angrily and he kind of back of.
- Lila, can we discuss that another time ?
- No! How do you know about it Thomas ? The question's way too simple.
I repeated having already loose my temper.
- I found the warnings in your bag.
- Really ?
I asked raising an eyebrow.
- Of course Lila. What do you think, that I wrote them ?
He asked and by the way he looked at me as if he was ashamed made it clear. He had something to do with it.
But has he wrote the warnings ? And if yes, why ?
Why he was behaving like a total jerk when it came to Julian ?
- Of course I don't believe you wrote them Thomas.
I said smiling. He seemed to relax. That gave me even more courage to continue.
- I'm glad you do Lila cause.......
- I'm pretty sure you did it.
I screamed again.
- Lila, no believe me. I can't hurt you like that. I love you.
He said making an attempt to touch my face but I made his hand go away.
- Don't touch me.
I said but it wasn't a necessity since he had already backed off.
- Lila, please.....
- Enough with the begging. I had enough for one day.
I said looking angrily at him again.
- Do you think that I could do such thing ?
- Do you think you can handle the answer of this question ?
I shouted again.
I couldn't handle it. I knew that everything was my fault when I decided to end things between me and Julian before years, but I only did it because of his coach. His coach had strong points telling me that Julian needed some time on his own, some time without a girlfriend. Some time to think of his future. I took that seriously cause I respect Julian's carreer and I love football. Basically I love whatever he loves, he touches, he owns.......I love him. But I had failed to prove that to him twice.
- Can we forget this Lila ? Please, don't be mad at me. I love you.
Thomas hold my hand. His fear was obvious in his eyes. He meant it. When he said he loved me he meant it. And I like it. I liked the fact that he loved me, that he cared about me.
But there was a problem.
I didn't love him. At least not in the way he wanted me to. I only loved Julian that way. I had always loved Julian that way. And I know that I can't do anything right now about it since he's getting married but at least I couldn't fool myself anymore.
- I need some time on my own Thomas. I need to think about......
I stopped and I looked at him. The fear in his eyes made me feel guilty. What was he afraid of ? That he was going to lose me ? Little does he know that he already has.....
- I can leave if you want some time to think on your own but Lila, answer me please. Do you trust me ? When I say I just found the warnings in your bag, do you trust me ?
He was desperate. His tone of voice made that clear.
- So, you say that you don't trust me and that you're searching my things ?
I answered wanting to make him confused so to finally give me some answers. But I knew he wouldn't as far as he was sober.
I should make him drink.
Stop thinking bullshit Lila this is serious.
I thought to myself feeling ridiculous about what was I thinking.
- You have misunderstood everything. The envelope with the warnings was obvious and I made an attempt to put it back in your bag and.....and you know.....I saw it.....I was a little curious....and....
The fact that he was hesitating made me think that he was lying. On the other hand, what he said wasn't quite unbelievable. I had no clue what to do. The only thing I knew was that I wanted to think. On my own.
- Thomas, please it doesn't matter....
- Really ?
He asked and the hope was obvious in his voice.
- Yeah, it doesn't. Just leave. Please. I'll call you....sometime, maybe, I don't know.....
I murmured and he was disappointed once again.
- Okay, I'll leave.
He said making his way to the door.
- Thank you.
I whispered.
- I'll call you or I'll come to the hotel.....because we need to talk....and....
- Okay, don't worry I believe you.
I reassured him just to kick him out of my house.
- Okay see....
And I closed the door behind him.
Now, I needed to talk to Meghan. I needed to hear what she had to say about it. She always helped me with everything so I had no doubt that she would help me with that as well.
The only problem was that she was too attached to Robert and I had my doubts that maybe she would tell him and then Robert would tell Thomas which was exactly what I didn't want.
The fact that Thomas could have something to do with the warnings made me sick. I knew that he was jealous because he knew that I would always choose Julian over him but still he couldn't do such thing especially when know that it was hurting me.
And then it was Julian.
Julian.
That was it! Julian was still at the hotel and I should talk to him. He came back to Munich for a reason I never learned and I had my chance talk to him. I didn't know what should I say to him but I needed to talk to him especially after the I love you thing.
I checked my watch. I had my shift anyway in a few hours. But I couldn't wait till then. I needed to see him as soon as possible. I needed to tell him the truth about the warnings because he had no clue. I knew that this wasn't going to change anything since he was getting married. He wasn't going to leave Vanessa, such a successful and beautiful woman for me. My nerves were starting to take the best of me. I had to do something immediately. I also needed to talk to Meghan. She wasn't the best choice for this occassion but she was the only one. I grabbed my bag and I headed to the door aware of the cadles that Thomas has set all over my appartment. It was such a nice surprise. Just not from the right person. I immediately ran away from my appartment heading to the hotel. I knew that Meghan wasn't there since we left together a couple of time ago. But I needed to talk to Julian right now. Not to Meghan. Arriving at the hotel I immediately spotted Cody.
- Hello, ma'am I forgot something and I came to pick it.
- I never asked Lila.
She answered rolling her eyes at me. Thank God she wasn't in the mood.
I nodded heading to the elevator that could lead me to the third floor where Julian was staying.
When I reached the third floor I immediately spotted his room door. I felt my heart beating faster cause I haven't talked to him after I said that I loved him. Reaching his door I knocked but I got no answer. What the hell ? He left ? He was there less than two hours ago. I tried to open the door but it was locked.
Fuck....
I didn't expect that.
I went back to the reception having decided to take one of the keys and break inside his room. I wanted to see if his things were there. I only wished he hadn't left Munich and that he had just went somewhere near here.
The fact that I was so upset was noticed unfortunately by Cody when I bumped into her.
- I'm sorry ma'am I'll leave it's that.....
- You're searching for mr. Draxler, don't you ?
Fuck....even Cody had noticed.
- Is it that obvious ?
- You mean your behaviour since he came here ? No, Lila. It's that he's searching for you as well. He asked me about your sister.
- Valerie ?
- Yes, specifically he asked where she lives, and I had to tell him. You know I can't disappoint our clients.
So, Julian went to see Valerie ?
That was bad. Really bad.