Hotel Room Service ( A Julian Draxler Fanfiction)[Completed]

Chapter 39

~People are not addicted to alcohol or drugs, they are addicted to escaping from reality~

~When we were in high school~

Lila

- What do you mean you're moving Lila ?
Brine's voice cracked.
Well, that made two of us.
- You know......
I just started saying but I managed nothing than to burst into tears.
- I'm so sorry Lila. What a stupid question you must feel terrible.
Brine said. Her eyes were worried, her hands were shaking as she touched my shoulder.
- I'm okay.
I lied, trying to wipe my tears away.
- And....
Brine hesitated but there was no need to, I knew exactly what she wanted to ask me. Her eyes looked away as I reached for her gaze.
- I haven't told him.
I responded to the question she didn't make.
- Will you ?
- I have to.
I responded while tears were starting to fill my eyes again.
- You love each other. You have both proved that. I never believed in true love Lila but yours made me change my mind. I'm pretty sure Julian will understand.
- But I don't want him to understand. I want him to be mad at me and to break up with me.
- What are you talking about ?
Brine asked looking worryingly at me. It's obvious that this wasn't the answer she expected.
- I want us to break up.
- With Julian ? Why ?
- Cause I got tired of all this drama. He loves football more than life itself and I can't always come second to his life.
Brine looked at me shocked. It was obvious that she was trying to understand whether I was kidding or not. I wasn't kidding. I wanted Julian to break up with me. But not because his love for football was stronger than his love for me. Because that was a lie. I knew that Julian could sacrifice anything for me even football and that's what I didn't want. He was really talented and he deserved a carreer as a professional footballer. And I was a hardle. I have never really thought that I could be a hardle as long as Julian's carreer was concerned. I thought that being a girlfriend didn't really mattered. It appeared to be that I was wrong. And I was wrong. And his coach made that clear to me. He said that Julian's not in the mood for a love life or a girlfriend right now and I have to admit that he's right. If Julian wants to be more than just a random teenager that plays football just for the sake of playing it I have to give him some space and I guess that this movement is the best chance. His coach insisted that I should leave him but I really don't have the guts to do this. I didn't. As long as we're moving I guess that this is the best for both of us. Besides, I don't think that none of us can handle a long distance relation.
And it hurts. It hurts so much to leave him, I love him but I don't really have a choice. I know that this is going to hurt him as much as it hurts me but I can't do otherwise.
- You have to think of it Lila.
- No. I know that this is the right thing.
- When are you leaving ?
- When this school year ends.
- What ?
Brine was now shouting. Being panicked I checked if someone had heard us but it appeared that we were alone in an empty school yard.
- You heard me.
I responded as my nerves were starting to take the best of me. Brine was my best friend but I had doubts that by telling her this I had made the right choice. She could tell anybody. And by anybody I meant Julian. And I didn't want that. I was the one telling that to Julian.
- Lila, that means you're leaving in two weeks ?
Brine asked with her eyes being wide open.
I nodded. My parents have already decided to sell our house. Everything was going way too fast and I couldn't be a part of it.
- I think our next classes have already started.
I informed her. I didn't want to talk about this any longer. Not now.

- Are you okay Lila ?
Valerie came to my room uninvited but I didn't even had the courage to shout at her for doing so.
- Yes.
I said leaving my math book and looking at her.
- Do you want to talk to me maybe ?
She asked and I looked at her cautiously. What the hell ?
Has our mother made her talk to me ? That was impossible. These two weren't talking at each other any more.
- About what ?
- In general.
- Are you trying to be my psychologist ?
I asked her laughing. She didn't laugh back. She looked way serious.
- I'm not kidding Lila.
- I'm sorry I guess.
I answered although I had no idea for what I was sorry.
- How.....how have your....friends reacted when telling them you're leaving ?
Valerie asked. She avoided to look at me and it was more than obvious why. By friends she didn't simply meant Brine or any of the others. By the word friends she had Julian in mind.
- I haven't told them yet.
I answered not being sure who was fooling who.
- But I thought Brine knew....
- But it's not Brine we're talking about, is it ?
I asked and Valerie looked away.
- No, I guess it's not.
- I need to break up with him Valerie.
- I know. But you'll hurt him.
- I know, and I don't want that but he needs to focus on his football carreer and I only make him fall behind.
I answered as tears were starting filling my eyes.
- I thought it was the distance you couldn't handle.
- If only was that. This is nothing more than just a justification. I don't fucking care about distance, not when it comes to Julian.
I said bursting in tears again. His coach was right. If you love something you have to let it go. I don't know how this is even possible but I guess it's.
A knock on my door made me jump out of bed and so did Valerie.
- Wipe your tears away. Mom thinks you're okay.
Valerie said wiping my tears away.
- How can she think that ? Is she stupid or something ?
- I don't really know.
Valerie answered and made her way to my door. She opened it while I was trying to make my hair so not to look like a mess.
- Valerie, hi. I need to talk to Lila.
His voice made me jump. Was it Julian ? When did he come ? Who let him in ? Has he heard anything ?
- I don't know if she's in the mood for talking.....
- Julian....
I said and I ran to them.
Julian looked at me dissappointed. He must have been mad. His eyes looked at me as if he couldn't believe what had happened. It seemed like he knew. But how ? And then it came to me.
Brine.
- I'll leave you alone.
Valerie said patting my shoulder.
She left and I let Julian come to my room. He was staring at it as if he hadn't been there before.
- I didn't know you were leaving.
He said looking at me. His eyes were filled with tears. I immediately felt sick. That was the last thing I wanted.
Don't cry baby.....please don't.
- Have you heard anything ?
It was the only thing that came to my mind.
- No, I just came. Your mother let me in.
He explained and he came to sit beside me.
- Did Brine tell you ?
- Yes, she did.
His eyes locked on mine. He touched my chin with his fingers and came closer to me. I felt my heart beating faster as every time he was doing such thing to me.
- What exactly has she told you ?
I asked again. I was afraid that Brine told him about my decision to break up with him.
- That you're leaving.
- Only that ?
I asked afraid of his answer.
- Yes.
He replied and it was obvious that he wasn't lying. Thank God Brine had for once shut her mouth.
- I'm so sorry Julian. I know I should have told you but I don't know it that long myself.
He didn't let me finish my sentence. He put a finger on my lips making me stop talking.
He then placed a kiss on my lips. He kissed me again and again and again. I couldn't take enough of him.
- It doesn't really matter Lil. It doesn't.