Mine

Chapter Fifty

"I know him dying wasn't my fault. But I had brought you there before. I knew that place was terrible and I had risked your life by taking you there. Nothing might have happened that time, but it could of. I feel so stupid for being that selfish. I only cared about what I wanted and I didn't even think about something like that happening to you."

"But Dirk, nothing happened to me."

"I risked you though."

"Well you didn't know so as far as I'm concerned you definitely didn't do anything wrong." Although Dirk doesn't continue to argue with me, I can tell by the look on his face he's not listening to me. "You're going to counseling."

"Dave-"

"No! You don't have any reason to feel guilty! If you won't listen to me maybe you'll listen to someone who actually has a degree. I'm not talking to you until you set up a meeting and I either have written proof or audible proof." I turn away from Dirk and cross my arms.

"Quit being childish. You won't do that." I keep my lips sealed. This probably isn't the right way to handle this situation, but if it works I'm going to stick with it. "Dave? Oh come on. This isn't fair." I stand up and start for my room. I'm expecting Dirk to tell me to wait and give in, but he doesn't. I sit in my room unsure of what I want to do now. I was honestly expecting him to listen to me. I suppose he will eventually, but I didn't really want to ignore him for so long.

I end up on my phone texting Rose about my problems. Not that that is anything new. 'Hey Rose, you got a second?'

'For you? I suppose.'

'Dirk blames himself for shit he didn't do, and there are kind of traumatic events too. He won't go to counseling so I told him I won't talk to him until he does.'

'-_-'

'So I'm guess that was the wrong response?'

'When has ignoring someone with a compromised emotional state ever been a good thing?'

'Well what am I suppose to do then?'

'Try comforting and reassurance.'

'Been there done that.'
'He won't listen to me.'
'It's also about me so maybe that's why.'

'If there was a face palming emoji I would be using it.'

'No. The one face was weird enough. You don't ever emoji.'

'Well there's only so many cases of stupid I can take before Dave takes the cake.'
'I didn't mean that.'
'Rough day.'

'Jeez maybe you need someone to talk to.'

'I'm not talking about my petty problems with anyone, especially someone who's fifty shades of fucked up.'

'Ha ha. Very funny.'

'And fitting.'

'True, but that's beside the point.'
'You're always there for me, so if you need someone to bitch at please use me.'

'I can just hear the sexual innuendos coming off of that sentence.'

'Rose!'

'You were setting yourself up for it.'

'You know this is a very odd conversation with you. Have you been drinking?'

'Perhaps a little.'

'No wonder you sound off.'

'Sound? I didn't know you read what I wrote in my voice.'

'Rose I swear to god.'

'That's not very nice is it?'

'Be honest, are you too drunk to help me?'

'No.'
'Dirk is stubborn. Although he loves you, he will still be stubborn with you. The longer you carry on the I'm not talking to you bullshit the worse his mindset is going to be. So apologize to him and just let him know you're worried about him. Try to cry too. It'll only help your case.'

'How will that help me? You said he is stubborn.'

'Yes, so you can't out stubborn him. You have to use his greatest weakness against him.'
'Which is you, by the way.'

'So he'll give in because I'm crying?'

'He'll give in because he's upsetting the person he cares most about.'

'Oh. Ok, thanks.'
'Now what's up with you?'

'Uh, it's not really that important.'

'Obviously it is or you wouldn't be drinking.'

'I had to take an extra class to broaden my horizons. It always looks better to be well rounded, but we both know that I'm only good at intellectual classes.'

'So what class did you have to take?'

'Art.'

'That's not too bad.'

'I can remember the artist and their styles, but when you give me a pencil and paper and tell me to recreate it...'

'You have to be good at art to pass that class?'

'Yes. It's not even a class I can be tutored in either.'

'So then what do you do?'

'That's where my problem lies.'
'I have no idea what to do.'

'Have you talked to your instructor?'

'Ah, that's a whole other problem.'

'Why?'

'Because, I seem to have developed some human emotions recently.'

'Oh shit. You have a crush on your instructor?'

'It seems that I do, yes.'

'Rose that's so adorable! Go for it!'

'That's not how it works.'
'She's my instructor.'
'I'll just fail.'

'No. You will put on your big girl panties and woman up and ask for help. Then you will woo her with your newly found art skills.'

'Dave I'm serious.'
'I can't.'

'Why not?'

'Because that's my instructor!'

'Not forever.'
'Get help with art through your class, and then once that class is over, go for it.'

'Dave.'
'Not helping.'
'Top priority is passing class. Not trying to get into a relationship. Especially with an instructor.'

'Why are you still in school anyway? I thought you're already a phycologist?'

'Dave.'
'I want multiple degrees. Better pay that way.'

'I feel like you're starting to crash.'

'Yes I feel that I am.'
'Is your problem solved now?'

'Sort of. What if he's still being stubborn, or just trying to reassure me he's fine.'

'Send him to me.'

'Oh god, I can imagine how that's going to go.'

'What's that suppose to mean?'

'Last time I let him talk to you I didn't see him for hours.'

'Well he had a lot to say. I talk to you a lot so you're able to get out everything that bothers you, but not him.'
'Roxy isn't even capable of helping him get everything out. He's a tough one to work with.'

'I can imagine.'
'Well I'll let you go for now. Don't forget that your instructor won't be your instructor forever and if you want to pass you have to talk to her.'

'How could I forget that.'
'Remember what I said about Dirk though.'

'Yeah yeah.' I set my phone down and glance at my door. It's about time I go and apologize and try to make things right.