Scars Left By Memories - Book II

Really Is It?

Francisco

"I came here in secret. The estate is so safe. You should come over to move in. It's better than here." Martinez said.

"Well, even its much safer than here. I can't. Be after what happened three months back. I think it's best if Sage and I stay alone. Just for a bit longer."
I reply racking my hand through my hair.

"She's going to have to get over it. It has been three months and that's ninety days. Francisco look at yourself. You have become weak because of her."  Martinez insults. I furrowed my eyebrows at that statement.

"Do you realize how hard it is to get over your loved one dying. Especially in front of you." I argue back.

"Fine, I guess you are right." Martinez replies. He eyes bulged for a second. "Have you even taken Sage out to go eat, one on one?"

"A date?" I ask.

"No, a date. Obviously a date." Martinez answers. What a stupid question.

"No. There are many problems to that. One she's trying to cope over someone she dated and me asking her out to a date. Would be basically saying, hey your boyfriend is dead, date me!" I said emphasizing the dated part.

"Not in any romantic way. Just a friendly way. Do you have feelings for Sage still?" Martinez ask.

"No, Martinez stop. I am not asking Sage out on a date. I don't have feelings for her. So your ship will never sail. It did at one point and it sunk. Never to be found again." I answer.

Martinez walks past me. Sage gets off the sofa. She smiles at Martinez. He smiles back at her. Please, don't ask.

"Hey Sage, if Francisco asked you on a date. In a friend-like way would you say yes?" Martinez ask.

"Uh-" Sage was going to answer. But I interrupted her. She didn't need to answer the question.

"Sorry, Martinez is being a bit childish. You don't have to answer that question." I said.

"I mean, I was going to answer yes. If it's just a friendly date." Sage replies.

Her answer surprised me. I would expect her to say 'no'. I looked at her as my eyebrows raised. Martinez lightly punched me in stomach as a joke.

"What about tomorrow night." Martinez says. Sage and I looked at each other in confusion.

"Martinez, you said this was just a sarcastic thing. Don't take this out of proportion." I reply.

"I was kidding. Anyways Sage do you enjoy it here?" Martinez ask.

"Yes, it feels safe. Since what happened at the estate. A couple months back." Sage answers sitting down on the sofa.

"Well, maybe we can move to the estate while they finish up the one in New Jersey. Halle's there." Martinez said trying to convince her.

"As much as I would want to come back and live with everyone. I'm still trying to get over Tristan's death. One other person is enough." Sage replies.

***

I closed the front door. Hopefully Martinez would make it back safely. Sage sat on the couch her arms around her leg. Walking over to her, I sat down besides her.

"Why did Martinez ask about the date stuff?" Sage ask.

"Because he talked about how it's not safe here with just the two of us." I answer. Sage laughs.

"What's so funny?" I ask.

"Nothing." Sage answer redeeming herself. That's when I gave her a stern look. She stopped smiling and laughing.

"Can we talk about something?" I ask.

"Yea, why the sudden mood change?" Sage answers, dropping a question.

"Because something Martinez told me, really wanted me to ask you." I reply.

"Go on." Sage said worried like.

"Is there something bothering you or reminding you about Tristan. Something that's been keeping you upset?" I ask softly. Sage sighed.

"Yes, there is. I am worried that if I move on and fall in love with someone else. It seems like I don't care about him anymore. I just let him go. It will make me seem like a bad person." Sage answers.

"It shouldn't, because you will care about him. He's probably happy if you move on and not be stressed your whole like about it, you will miss opportunities in life." I reply.

"Okay, here's a question for you. If I moved on and fell in love with someone else. Would you think I am a bad person?" Sage ask.

"No, I would never think that. You are not even a bad person Sage." I answer.

Sage

I smiled at that. Francisco smiles back. His smile was always cute to me. Getting off the couch to go to my room. Since it's been such a long morning and it seems like I got barely enough sleep.

Opening my bedroom door. The nice cool air hit me. I shut it behind me. The clock said in red coloring, 5:45. I pulled off my hoodie. It was just a tee-shirt underneath it. I put it on the chair besides the dresser. I walk over to the blinds, moving them open slightly.

That's when it came to my mind. Was it time to move on from Tristan? Like Francisco said, I wouldn't be a bad person if I did.

Earlier today I didn't think Martinez was kidding about the date thing. He just said that to cancel it and not make me feel bad.

But if I was honest, I wouldn't mind going on a date with Francisco. Friendly or not friendly. Because he's been really caring, nice, and everyone sweet for the past three months.

I don't consider myself falling for Francisco again. He is like one of my best friends. Maybe I still had feelings for him when I was with Tristan. It's all confusing.

Francisco and I didn't get along for a month. We dated, I regret that so much. Just made me want to put a toothpick under my toenail and kick a wall. Anyways, kissed a thousand times, and broke up.

Maybe we weren't in the right place. Even though it's been nearly five months since we've met each other and four months since we broke up. Maybe things have changed. Who knows? But I am in the ride to find out.