The walking dead X reader

Did you love me or is it all just an act (Carl x reader)

This chapter is longer than the rest I hope y'all enjoy it

-(Y/n)'s pov-
I've been thinking for a while now. My ex Carl always claimed he loved me. Which probably wasn't true, I mean who could love me (You guys are all beautiful and amazing. What I write is not true about any of you guys.) I'm fat, ugly and stupid. At dinner I would always catch Carl looking at me, but all I do in return is turn away. Carl always used to be there for me, we used to always read comics, hug, take care of Judith. Now all we do is nothing. Glenn tried making us talk to each other, but all he got was silence. I can't bother talking to him anymore. He hurt me badly, he broke my heart because he found Enid. A girl who wasn't right for him according to everyone I was the perfect girl for him. Right now I'm on the porch of my house staring up at the sky. Nobody knows this, but Enid has been bullying me. She tells me to die almost everyday. I've had enough of it. Today is the day I leave and never come back. I quickly wrote a letter it read...
"Dear who ever finds this,
I'm so sorry you had to hear it from me, but I'm leaving. There is no point to survive in a world you know you have chance of living in. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough for anyone. I'm sorry Carl that I wasn't the one you'd take care of, or help in time of need. I'm sorry Rick that I'm not the best helper on runs. Most importantly I'm sorry Glenn that you had to deal with me for so many years and not get a proper thank you. While you're reading this you'll realize that I'm long gone and never returning. There's no room in Alexandria for a girl like me who's dumb, ugly and fat. There's no room for me anywhere. So while you're reading this I'm either on my own or I have died. I'm taking my knife, my water bottle, clothes, and my hidden stash of candy with me. I hope life without me is a lot better. Carl if you read this did you ever love me or was it all an act?
      Love, (Y/n)"
I reread over the letter a couple times then placed it on the counter in my house. I quickly gathered all my things into a draw string bag then went to the front gates. On my way up I was stopped by Glenn. He said "(y/n) where are you going." I turned around and said "I asked Rick if I could go on a run to gather up some food for Judith, he agreed to it." He nodded his head and told me to be careful, not before giving me a hug and kissing my forehead. (Glenn is like a brother like figure.) I quickly ran off and out the gates. I cant believe he actually believed me. Now the hard part is to leave forever.

-Carl's pov-
Today is the day, I'm planning on talking to (y/n) and asking her if we could try again. I mean yeah I know I was with Enid, but she's really clingy. (Y/n) actually left me alone and took care of me. Put it as this I miss her too much, seeing her the way she is, is just driving me insane. I ran to her house and knocked. Not hearing a response I thought she was in her room and I went inside. I then saw a note on the counter. I read the note a couple of times before figuring out she left. Then I saw the last line "Carl if you read this did you ever love me or was it all a lie?" Why would my love me a lie I care for her too much. I hope she's ok. I hope she's still alive, I just wanna know why would she leave.

Cliffhanger. Hope you guys enjoyed part 2 will be out tomorrow.

Love Kenzie