The Vanguard and The Jewel Knight

Distance

Summary: "Even if I'm with you, all I can do is to keep my distance, and say I love you when you're not listening."

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-Kourin's POV-

Looking at the morning sky, I was walking to school and went to the classroom. I noticed that there's no one there, but I realized that there's a certain blue haired boy sitting on his chair.

He was sleeping, and he looked so peaceful. I went to him and notice him mumble something on his sleep.

Aichi, he is so different than he was before. And I couldn't even believe myself for falling for him. Aichi, the only question here is, even though I love you, do you feel the way I do?

I brushed his bangs off his face, and I whispered something that he may not ever hear.

"I love you." I said and just smiled as I sat on my own chair.
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We were at the Cardfight Club, and I watched Aichi as he plays against Naoki. I could only smile at him, and unexpectedly I saw Aichi looking back at me and smiled.

"Kourin?" Misaki called me and I glanced at her. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm okay." I replied and while we were talking, I found myself glancing at Aichi.

Why… am I so in love with him?
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I didn't notice it myself, when I kept on looking at Aichi, I realized that the way I love him is too much… It even got to the point where Aichi would stand next to me, my heart raced fast.

'Please don't stand so close to me, Aichi… I'm having trouble breathing.' I said to myself as I held my chest. I'm afraid that he would see my lovesickness to him.

Aichi, I'd give you everything I am, all of me, my life, my broken heartbeats because I know that you won't love me but I would still do, just for you to love me. But for now, I'd keep myself in check, until that day you will understand.

Yet, all I could still do is to keep my distance and say those three words as you are not near me. It hurts, how long can we keep this up, Aichi
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I gave myself to Link Joker, that evil clan, because of my feelings I could not hold back. Just for you to love me, I will make you mine.

But why? It still feels so wrong, so wrong… I only wanted you to love me. So why?

Looking at your eyes as we fight, I see your determined eyes. Those eyes are the ones, one of those things that made me fell in love with you.

I can't… I can't do it.

I can't face you, Aichi.

Why… why can't I?
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I kept on waiting for you to take me, because even if I'm reversed, my feelings are still there, but I have to fight you, because my reversed feelings told me that I should make you mine.

It's still wrong.

I just want you to love me.
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You fought me and I lost, you saved me.

We got to the Sanctuary because you have to seal Link Joker and I stayed with you because I have to keep you sealed, and because I want to help you.

I watched Aichi as he sleeps on his throne, I couldn't help but to cry. And I stayed here, at a distance.

"I love you, Aichi. I do, but… even if you don't love me back, I will still dedicate myself to you, that's what I have to do." I said.
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Link Joker ended, everything is fine, the seed is no more. And before I leave, I said the words that I had to say. That we would meet again.

But Aichi, I still haven't said the words, those three words. I love you.

So, in the end, I can't make you love me.

Because, even if I'm with you, all I could do is to keep my distance, and say I love you when you're not listening.

It hurts.

But it's the truth.

So, all I can say is a farewell. I still love you Aichi, but my memories have to go, and so do I.

Maybe, someday if we meet again, you can love me too and maybe I will not just keep my distance from you. I will wait, even though my memories have faded away.

I love you Aichi.

Until we meet again, okay?
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END