❝ you walked into the room and now my heart has been stolen ❞
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it was a dreary skied afternoon. in los angeles, these days were rare. justin thought, however, it was a perfect day. not all perfect, he thinks bitterly.
selena continued to sit on the couch and be mute. she hadn't spoken since she cried into his arms. she was building up her walls, justin concluded; she was closing back up, something justin didn't want to get used to, but sadly he was.
he moves away from the window where rain continued to tap the glass. swiftly moving to selena, he wraps his arms around her waist and tugs her to him.
tap.
tap.
tap.
the noise continued until justin finally fell asleep, in which he blocked out any sound.
for selena, she was outside, standing in the rain and allowing it to drench her – swallow her up.
she couldn't do it anymore, she couldn't drag justin into her problems. he already had too much things on his mind and selena was only adding to it. she wanted to minus herself out of the equation, to allow justin to stop worrying about her, and instead worry about himself.
she wanted nothing but the best for him.
of course, it's going to shatter him in the beginning. it was the best she could do, however. if he was going to be heartbroken, he's going to ignore her, which will only be best for him.
for her?
she wasn't too caught up or cared about the consequences on her side, as long as justin stayed away from her and her issues, as long as he continues to live without her, in which he'll soon become more independent; in which he'll finally forget about her and move on.
she needed him to move on.
if she shatters under the spotlight, she'll be okay. like justin said, he done everything for her, and now it was her turn to return the favour. he wouldn't see it at first, of course he won't, but later when he's reminiscing, he'll finally realise she only done everything for him to get better.
he had potential to get better, he had ambition, whereas selena's light was burning out.
she'll kill herself – not literally, more like mentally – for him to get better.
so, after she cleanses herself from the rain, she leaves and never looks back.
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a/n;
early update as an apology for the lack of updates recently x
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