❝ i met you in the dark, you lit me up ❞
* * *
the worst thing in the world for justin is to wake up in the dark, expecting his lover next to him, snuggled up into his arms – it was a punch right in the guts.
when he woke up, he couldn't bare the fact that selena couldn't even stand to be in his arms, that she had to leave her own house just to get away from him.
that was what hurt him the most, not that selena didn't deny anything he was saying, or the fact she wasn't even fighting for them.
he didn't bother ringing her to check up on her, see how she's doing – like he always would. he didn't even bother getting his belongings, he just left the house with his credit card, keys and phone which was already on him.
he went straight to the club which he always went to, before even meeting selena. the club that was his remedy.
the loud music didn't bother him, or the gawking stares of people. all he wanted to do was to forget the day that drained him mentally.
"one more," he shouts over the loud music and chatter to the bartender. obeying, the bartender immediately refills his cup.
and then justin slams his cup down back on the bar, it already empty from one lift. he calls out again for just 'one' more, which both he and the bartender knew was an utter lie.
now, the bottle of alcohol was sitting next to him, since the bartender became sick and tired of returning back to justin every time he calls.
and next, before justin recalled what he was doing, he reaches for selena that was near him and crashes his lips against her.
he knew what he was doing was wrong. he knew the girl wasn't really selena, but he kept on deceiving himself. he didn't want to confront himself of another lie, so he continued to kiss the random girl – selena, in his mind.
and just like that, like smoke immediately coming out of a fire, there was moaning in the air, and he found himself in a room in a bed that was unknown to him.
* * *
selena left the house last night with the mindset that she's going to distance herself away from justin. a plan was already building up, a plan to break the relationship apart.
that plan quickly died when selena saw the photos that leaked out of justin kissing another girl. a girl that certainly wasn't selena, even the fans couldn't make up explanations or ways to prove it was selena.
the girl was blonde.
the girl was hailey baldwin.
justin had met up with her, but hadn't recalled making the plan. justin had kissed her, but hadn't recalled it was her. justin had cheated, but hadn't recalled it when waking up in the morning completely hungover.
and he knew, like the water in a lake, he ruined everything he lived for.
once the cloud cleared his mind, he finally had the will to slide out of the comfort of the random bed and meet whoever was the girl that allowed justin to ruin his relationship.
he wasn't surprised.
hailey baldwin, his former best friend, always had a crush on him, and he definitely knew it. so seeing her prance around in nothing but his shirt, he knew that it wasn't the girl's fault, but only his own.
he wanted – needed to make everything right with selena, to rekindle whatever was left of them.
oh, was he stupid to believe she would answer his phone calls. after what felt a thousand times of calling, he finally stopped.
it wasn't worth it.
* * *
a/n;
i need you guys to do me a favour !! we're so close to hitting 3k votes, and i know this isn't important but it kinda bothers me lmao. if you could just vote and reach the goal, it will make me feel a lot better and calm my ocd lol x
backup: nikIaus
YOU ARE READING
Despair
Fanfiction[completed] she's famous, talented and beautiful - that's what the media and fans sees. truly: she was broken. [ could trigger some people, so read at your own risk. please know that suicide isn't going to help you, it'll cause more pain, but inst...
